閱讀阿娜伊斯·寧 Anaïs Nin在散文天地的作品!!! | |||
1903年出生在巴黎，1977年在洛杉磯去世。在她74年的生命旅程中，她擁有的個人標簽是著名的女性日記小說傢、西班牙舞舞蹈傢，而她所擁有的與他人發生聯繫的標簽裏，除作麯傢琴·寧的女兒、金融傢雨果的妻子之外，最著名的標簽就是作傢亨利·米勒的情人。
江蘇人民出版社在2007年8月推出的《阿娜伊斯·寧日記》，承蒙朋友的饋贈，我有四本。這四本，年份分別是1931~1934，1934~1939，1939~1944，1944~1947，這個階段的阿娜伊斯·寧，從28歲到44歲，正是盛年時期，其文本呈現出來的效果色彩豔麗、元氣豐沛，有一種特別的原生態的質感。其實，阿娜伊斯·寧的日記文本可讀性並不高，幾乎沒有連貫的情節推進以及完整的場景描述，她所呈現的幾乎都是斷片式的東西——對話、書信、議論、揣測、無休止的自我分析與主觀判斷，其中交織着女性特有的敏感、遊移、臆斷和神經質。而這一切又都是截取性質的，並沒有某種相對完整的面貌呈現在讀者面前，“我”以及“我”交往的人永遠置於聚焦的前景，時代和社會的風雲變幻永遠都是虛了光的背景。對於一部擁有時間長度這個重要元素的文本來說，這種缺乏變化的“拍攝”方式，使得阿娜伊斯·寧日記顯得單調，讓人在閱讀時有一種破碎的繁復感，綿延不斷，不知所終。我以前翻閱過另外的單捲本的《阿娜伊斯·寧日記》，在看了差不多二三十頁後，就産生了厭倦感。我被那本書裏充溢着的無數精妙絶倫但泛濫成災的“感覺”給弄得筋疲力盡。
這一次，四捲本擺在我面前，我突然産生了一種奇怪的耐心，我覺得，這種耐心的背後仿佛有一種新鮮體驗的可能性。
耐心是對的。對於阿娜伊斯·寧日記這種帶有明顯的文獻意義的作品，就得有一種研究的耐心，而一旦付出這份耐心，一種傾聽的美妙就漸漸浮了上來。阿娜伊斯·寧以其漫長的寫作時間（超過60年）所構成的其日記作品的體積和容量，這本身就擁有極大的價值，其次，她在日記中呈現的社會心理與個人心理之間的折射與影響，也因其寫作時間的跨度而擁有了歲月的張力；再就是，阿娜伊斯·寧從一個帶有強烈的自省意識的女性作傢的角度出發，為我們呈現了一幅難得的女性自我覺醒、自我成長的心靈地圖，這幅地圖色澤鮮豔、地貌豐富，充滿了激情；雖然這種激情本身並不能支撐起整個文本的文學價值，但卻很好地潤澤了它的文獻價值，同時，它會讓讀者在耐心的閱讀過程中，尋找到與個人的內心世界和情感方式的許多契合點。當然，我所說的讀者應該是限於女性讀者。
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Early life
Anaïs Nin was born in Neuilly, France, to two artistic parents. Her father, Joaquín Nin, was a Cuban pianist and composer, and her mother Rosa Culmell was a classically trained Cuban singer of French and Danish ancestry. Her paternal great-grandfather had fled France during the Revolution, going first to Haiti, then New Orleans, and finally to Cuba where he helped build that country's first railway. After her parents separated, her mother moved Anaïs and her two brothers, Thorvald Nin and Joaquin Nin-Culmell, from Barcelona to New York City. According to her diaries, Volume One, 1931–1934, Nin abandoned formal schooling at the age of 16 and began working as a model.
On March 3, 1923, in Havana, Cuba, Nin married her first husband, Hugh Parker Guiler (1898–1985), a banker and artist, later known as "Ian Hugo" when he became a filmmaker of experimental films in the late 1940s. The couple moved to Paris the following year, where Guiler pursued his banking career and Nin began to pursue her interest in writing; in her diaries she also mentions having trained as a flamenco dancer in Paris in the mid-to-late 1920s. Her first published work was a critical evaluation of D. H. Lawrence called D. H. Lawrence: An Unprofessional Study. She also explored the field of psychotherapy, studying under the likes of Otto Rank, a disciple of Sigmund Freud.
Nin left Paris in the late summer of 1939, when residents from overseas were urged to leave France due to the upcoming war and returned to New York City with Guiler (who was, on his own wish, all but edited out of her published diaries and whose role in her life is therefore difficult to gauge) During the war, Nin sent her books to Frances Steloff of the Gotham Book Mart in New York for safekeeping.
Personal life
According to her diaries,Vol.1, 1931–1934, Nin shared a bohemian lifestyle with Henry Miller during her time in Paris. Her husband Guiler is not mentioned anywhere in the published edition of the 1930s parts of her diary (Vol.1–2) although the opening of Vol.1 makes it clear that she is married. Nin appeared in the Kenneth Anger film Inauguration of the Pleasure Dome (1954) as Astarte; in the Maya Deren film Ritual in Transfigured Time (1946); and in Bells of Atlantis (1952), a film directed by Guiler under the name "Ian Hugo" with a soundtrack of electronic music by Louis and Bebe Barron.
In 1947, at the age of 44, she met and began living with Rupert Pole (1919–2006), sixteen years her junior. On March 17, 1955, she married him at Quartzsite, Arizona, returning with Pole to live in California. Guiler remained in New York City and was unaware of Nin's second marriage until after her death in 1977.
After Guiler's death in 1985, the unexpurgated versions of her journals were commissioned by Pole.
Nin often cited authors Djuna Barnes and D. H. Lawrence as inspirations. She states in Volume One of her diaries that she drew inspiration from Marcel Proust, André Gide, Jean Cocteau, Paul Valéry, and Arthur Rimbaud.
Nin once worked at Lawrence R. Maxwell Books located at 45 Christopher Street.
Journals
Anaïs Nin is perhaps best remembered as a diarist. Her journals, which span several decades, provide a deeply explorative insight into her personal life and relationships. Nin was acquainted, often quite intimately, with a number of prominent authors, artists, psychoanalysts, and other figures, and wrote of them often, especially Otto Rank. Moreover, as a female author describing a primarily masculine constellation of celebrities, Nin's journals have acquired importance as a counterbalancing perspective.
Previously unpublished works are coming to light in A Café in Space, the Anais Nin Literary Journal, which most recently includes "Anais Nin and Joaquín Nin y Castellanos: Prelude to a Symphony—Letters between a father and daughter."
Erotic writings
Nin is hailed by many critics as one of the finest writers of female erotica. She was one of the first women to explore fully the realm of erotic writing, and certainly the first prominent woman in modern Europe to write erotica. Before her, erotica written by women was rare, with a few notable exceptions, such as the work of Kate Chopin.
According to Volume I of her diaries, 1931–1934, published in 1966 (Stuhlmann), Nin first came across erotica when she returned to Paris with her mother and two brothers in her late teens. They rented the apartment of an American man who was away for the summer, and Nin came across a number of French paperbacks: "One by one, I read these books, which were completely new to me. I had never read erotic literature in America… They overwhelmed me. I was innocent before I read them, but by the time I had read them all, there was nothing I did not know about sexual exploits… I had my degree in erotic lore."
Faced with a desperate need for money, Nin and Miller began in the 1940s to write erotic and pornographic narratives for an anonymous "collector" for a dollar a page, somewhat as a joke. Nin considered the characters in her erotica to be extreme caricatures and never intended the work to be published, but changed her mind in the early 1970s and allowed them to be published as Delta of Venus and Little Birds.
Nin was a friend, and in some cases lover, of many leading literary figures, including Henry Miller, Antonin Artaud, Edmund Wilson, Gore Vidal, James Agee, James Leo Herlihy, and Lawrence Durrell. Her passionate love affair and friendship with Miller strongly influenced her both as a woman and an author. The rumor that Nin was bisexual was given added circulation by the Philip Kaufman film Henry & June. This rumor is dashed by at least two encounters Nin writes about in her third unexpurgated journal, Fire. The first is with a patient of Nin's (Nin was working as a psychoanalyst in New York at the time), Thurema Sokol, with whom nothing physical occurs. She also describes a ménage à trois in a hotel, and while Nin is attracted to the other woman, she does not respond completely (229–31). Nin confirms that she is not bisexual in her unpublished 1940 diary when she states that although she could be attracted erotically to some women, the sexual act itself made her uncomfortable. What is irrefutable is her sexual attraction to men.
Nin's first unexpurgated journal, Henry and June, makes it clear, despite the notion to the contrary, that she did not have sexual relations with Miller's wife, June. While Nin was stirred by June to the point where she says (paraphrasing), "I have become June," she did not consummate her erotic feelings for her. Still, to both Anais and Henry, June was a femme fatale—irresistible, cunning, erotic. Nin gave June money, jewelry, clothes, oftentimes leaving herself broke. In her second unexpurgated journal, Incest, she wrote that she had an incestuous relationship with her father, which was graphically described (207–15). When Nin's father learned of the title of her first book of fiction, House of Incest, he feared that the true nature of their relationship would be revealed, when, in fact, it was heavily veiled in Nin's text.
Later life and legacy
In 1973 Anaïs Nin received an honorary doctorate from the Philadelphia College of Art. She was elected to the United States National Institute of Arts and Letters in 1974. She died in Los Angeles, California on January 14, 1977; her body was cremated, and her ashes were scattered over Santa Monica Bay. Rupert Pole was named Nin's literary executor, and he arranged to have new unexpurgated editions of Nin's books and diaries published between 1985 and his death in 2006.
Philip Kaufman directed the 1990 film Henry & June based on Nin's novel Henry and June: From the Unexpurgated Diary of Anaïs Nin. She was portrayed in the film by Maria de Medeiros.
Quotes
* "Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one's courage."
* "Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of withering, of tarnishing."
* "We don't see things as they are, we see them as we are."
* "If what Proust says is true, that happiness is the absence of fever, then I will never know happiness. For I am possessed by a fever for knowledge, experience, and creation."
* "For me, the adventures of the mind, each inflection of thought, each movement, nuance, growth, discovery, is a source of exhilaration."
* "It takes courage to push yourself to places that you have never been before, to test your limits, to break through barriers. And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."
* "How wrong is it for a woman to expect man to build the world she wants, rather than set out to create it herself."
* "Creation which cannot express itself becomes madness."
* "Shame is the lie someone told you about yourself."
* "Eroticism is one of the basic means of self-knowledge, as indispensable as poetry."
* "Life is a process of becoming, a combination of states we have to go through. Where people fail is that they wish to elect a state and remain in it. This is a kind of death."
* "The only abnormality is the inability to love."
* "I postpone death by living, by suffering, by error, by risking, by giving, by losing."
* "Each friend represents a world in us, a world not possibly born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born."
* "I am an excitable person who only understands life lyrically, musically, in whom feelings are much stronger as reason. I am so thirsty for the marvelous that only the marvelous has power over me. Anything I cannot transform into something marvelous, I let go. Reality doesn't impress me. I only believe in intoxication, in ecstasy, and when ordinary life shackles me, I escape, one way or another. No more walls."
* "We don't have a language for the senses. Feelings are images, sensations are like musical sounds."
* "The body is an instrument which only gives off music when it is used as a body. Always an orchestra, and just as music traverses walls, so sensuality traverses the body and reaches up to ecstasy."
* "Something is always born of excess: great art was born of great terror, great loneliness, great inhibitions, instabilities, and it always balances them."
* "Dreams are necessary to life."
* "Each contact with a human being is so rare, so precious, one should preserve it."
* "The dream was always running ahead of me. To catch up, to live for a moment with it, that was the miracle."
* "Love is the axis and breath of my life."
List of works
* D. H. Lawrence: An Unprofessional Study
* Collages
* Winter of Artifice
* Under a Glass Bell
* House of Incest
* Delta of Venus
* Little Birds
* Cities of the Interior, in five volumes:
o Ladders to Fire
o Children of the Albatross
o The Four-Chambered Heart
o A Spy in the House of Love
o Seduction of the Minotaur
* The Diary of Anaïs Nin (7 volumes)
* The Early Diary of Anaïs Nin (4 volumes)
* The Novel of the Future
* In Favor of the Sensitive Man
* Henry and June
* Incest: From a Journal of Love
* Fire
* Nearer the Moon
* Aphrodesiac