阅读阿娜伊斯·宁 Anaïs Nin在散文天地的作品!!! | |||
1903年出生在巴黎，1977年在洛杉矶去世。在她74年的生命旅程中，她拥有的个人标签是著名的女性日记小说家、西班牙舞舞蹈家，而她所拥有的与他人发生联系的标签里，除作曲家琴·宁的女儿、金融家雨果的妻子之外，最著名的标签就是作家亨利·米勒的情人。
江苏人民出版社在2007年8月推出的《阿娜伊斯·宁日记》，承蒙朋友的馈赠，我有四本。这四本，年份分别是1931~1934，1934~1939，1939~1944，1944~1947，这个阶段的阿娜伊斯·宁，从28岁到44岁，正是盛年时期，其文本呈现出来的效果色彩艳丽、元气丰沛，有一种特别的原生态的质感。其实，阿娜伊斯·宁的日记文本可读性并不高，几乎没有连贯的情节推进以及完整的场景描述，她所呈现的几乎都是断片式的东西——对话、书信、议论、揣测、无休止的自我分析与主观判断，其中交织着女性特有的敏感、游移、臆断和神经质。而这一切又都是截取性质的，并没有某种相对完整的面貌呈现在读者面前，“我”以及“我”交往的人永远置于聚焦的前景，时代和社会的风云变幻永远都是虚了光的背景。对于一部拥有时间长度这个重要元素的文本来说，这种缺乏变化的“拍摄”方式，使得阿娜伊斯·宁日记显得单调，让人在阅读时有一种破碎的繁复感，绵延不断，不知所终。我以前翻阅过另外的单卷本的《阿娜伊斯·宁日记》，在看了差不多二三十页后，就产生了厌倦感。我被那本书里充溢着的无数精妙绝伦但泛滥成灾的“感觉”给弄得筋疲力尽。
这一次，四卷本摆在我面前，我突然产生了一种奇怪的耐心，我觉得，这种耐心的背后仿佛有一种新鲜体验的可能性。
耐心是对的。对于阿娜伊斯·宁日记这种带有明显的文献意义的作品，就得有一种研究的耐心，而一旦付出这份耐心，一种倾听的美妙就渐渐浮了上来。阿娜伊斯·宁以其漫长的写作时间（超过60年）所构成的其日记作品的体积和容量，这本身就拥有极大的价值，其次，她在日记中呈现的社会心理与个人心理之间的折射与影响，也因其写作时间的跨度而拥有了岁月的张力；再就是，阿娜伊斯·宁从一个带有强烈的自省意识的女性作家的角度出发，为我们呈现了一幅难得的女性自我觉醒、自我成长的心灵地图，这幅地图色泽鲜艳、地貌丰富，充满了激情；虽然这种激情本身并不能支撑起整个文本的文学价值，但却很好地润泽了它的文献价值，同时，它会让读者在耐心的阅读过程中，寻找到与个人的内心世界和情感方式的许多契合点。当然，我所说的读者应该是限于女性读者。
(洁尘)
Early life
Anaïs Nin was born in Neuilly, France, to two artistic parents. Her father, Joaquín Nin, was a Cuban pianist and composer, and her mother Rosa Culmell was a classically trained Cuban singer of French and Danish ancestry. Her paternal great-grandfather had fled France during the Revolution, going first to Haiti, then New Orleans, and finally to Cuba where he helped build that country's first railway. After her parents separated, her mother moved Anaïs and her two brothers, Thorvald Nin and Joaquin Nin-Culmell, from Barcelona to New York City. According to her diaries, Volume One, 1931–1934, Nin abandoned formal schooling at the age of 16 and began working as a model.
On March 3, 1923, in Havana, Cuba, Nin married her first husband, Hugh Parker Guiler (1898–1985), a banker and artist, later known as "Ian Hugo" when he became a filmmaker of experimental films in the late 1940s. The couple moved to Paris the following year, where Guiler pursued his banking career and Nin began to pursue her interest in writing; in her diaries she also mentions having trained as a flamenco dancer in Paris in the mid-to-late 1920s. Her first published work was a critical evaluation of D. H. Lawrence called D. H. Lawrence: An Unprofessional Study. She also explored the field of psychotherapy, studying under the likes of Otto Rank, a disciple of Sigmund Freud.
Nin left Paris in the late summer of 1939, when residents from overseas were urged to leave France due to the upcoming war and returned to New York City with Guiler (who was, on his own wish, all but edited out of her published diaries and whose role in her life is therefore difficult to gauge) During the war, Nin sent her books to Frances Steloff of the Gotham Book Mart in New York for safekeeping.
Personal life
According to her diaries,Vol.1, 1931–1934, Nin shared a bohemian lifestyle with Henry Miller during her time in Paris. Her husband Guiler is not mentioned anywhere in the published edition of the 1930s parts of her diary (Vol.1–2) although the opening of Vol.1 makes it clear that she is married. Nin appeared in the Kenneth Anger film Inauguration of the Pleasure Dome (1954) as Astarte; in the Maya Deren film Ritual in Transfigured Time (1946); and in Bells of Atlantis (1952), a film directed by Guiler under the name "Ian Hugo" with a soundtrack of electronic music by Louis and Bebe Barron.
In 1947, at the age of 44, she met and began living with Rupert Pole (1919–2006), sixteen years her junior. On March 17, 1955, she married him at Quartzsite, Arizona, returning with Pole to live in California. Guiler remained in New York City and was unaware of Nin's second marriage until after her death in 1977.
After Guiler's death in 1985, the unexpurgated versions of her journals were commissioned by Pole.
Nin often cited authors Djuna Barnes and D. H. Lawrence as inspirations. She states in Volume One of her diaries that she drew inspiration from Marcel Proust, André Gide, Jean Cocteau, Paul Valéry, and Arthur Rimbaud.
Nin once worked at Lawrence R. Maxwell Books located at 45 Christopher Street.
Journals
Anaïs Nin is perhaps best remembered as a diarist. Her journals, which span several decades, provide a deeply explorative insight into her personal life and relationships. Nin was acquainted, often quite intimately, with a number of prominent authors, artists, psychoanalysts, and other figures, and wrote of them often, especially Otto Rank. Moreover, as a female author describing a primarily masculine constellation of celebrities, Nin's journals have acquired importance as a counterbalancing perspective.
Previously unpublished works are coming to light in A Café in Space, the Anais Nin Literary Journal, which most recently includes "Anais Nin and Joaquín Nin y Castellanos: Prelude to a Symphony—Letters between a father and daughter."
Erotic writings
Nin is hailed by many critics as one of the finest writers of female erotica. She was one of the first women to explore fully the realm of erotic writing, and certainly the first prominent woman in modern Europe to write erotica. Before her, erotica written by women was rare, with a few notable exceptions, such as the work of Kate Chopin.
According to Volume I of her diaries, 1931–1934, published in 1966 (Stuhlmann), Nin first came across erotica when she returned to Paris with her mother and two brothers in her late teens. They rented the apartment of an American man who was away for the summer, and Nin came across a number of French paperbacks: "One by one, I read these books, which were completely new to me. I had never read erotic literature in America… They overwhelmed me. I was innocent before I read them, but by the time I had read them all, there was nothing I did not know about sexual exploits… I had my degree in erotic lore."
Faced with a desperate need for money, Nin and Miller began in the 1940s to write erotic and pornographic narratives for an anonymous "collector" for a dollar a page, somewhat as a joke. Nin considered the characters in her erotica to be extreme caricatures and never intended the work to be published, but changed her mind in the early 1970s and allowed them to be published as Delta of Venus and Little Birds.
Nin was a friend, and in some cases lover, of many leading literary figures, including Henry Miller, Antonin Artaud, Edmund Wilson, Gore Vidal, James Agee, James Leo Herlihy, and Lawrence Durrell. Her passionate love affair and friendship with Miller strongly influenced her both as a woman and an author. The rumor that Nin was bisexual was given added circulation by the Philip Kaufman film Henry & June. This rumor is dashed by at least two encounters Nin writes about in her third unexpurgated journal, Fire. The first is with a patient of Nin's (Nin was working as a psychoanalyst in New York at the time), Thurema Sokol, with whom nothing physical occurs. She also describes a ménage à trois in a hotel, and while Nin is attracted to the other woman, she does not respond completely (229–31). Nin confirms that she is not bisexual in her unpublished 1940 diary when she states that although she could be attracted erotically to some women, the sexual act itself made her uncomfortable. What is irrefutable is her sexual attraction to men.
Nin's first unexpurgated journal, Henry and June, makes it clear, despite the notion to the contrary, that she did not have sexual relations with Miller's wife, June. While Nin was stirred by June to the point where she says (paraphrasing), "I have become June," she did not consummate her erotic feelings for her. Still, to both Anais and Henry, June was a femme fatale—irresistible, cunning, erotic. Nin gave June money, jewelry, clothes, oftentimes leaving herself broke. In her second unexpurgated journal, Incest, she wrote that she had an incestuous relationship with her father, which was graphically described (207–15). When Nin's father learned of the title of her first book of fiction, House of Incest, he feared that the true nature of their relationship would be revealed, when, in fact, it was heavily veiled in Nin's text.
Later life and legacy
In 1973 Anaïs Nin received an honorary doctorate from the Philadelphia College of Art. She was elected to the United States National Institute of Arts and Letters in 1974. She died in Los Angeles, California on January 14, 1977; her body was cremated, and her ashes were scattered over Santa Monica Bay. Rupert Pole was named Nin's literary executor, and he arranged to have new unexpurgated editions of Nin's books and diaries published between 1985 and his death in 2006.
Philip Kaufman directed the 1990 film Henry & June based on Nin's novel Henry and June: From the Unexpurgated Diary of Anaïs Nin. She was portrayed in the film by Maria de Medeiros.
Quotes
* "Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one's courage."
* "Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of withering, of tarnishing."
* "We don't see things as they are, we see them as we are."
* "If what Proust says is true, that happiness is the absence of fever, then I will never know happiness. For I am possessed by a fever for knowledge, experience, and creation."
* "For me, the adventures of the mind, each inflection of thought, each movement, nuance, growth, discovery, is a source of exhilaration."
* "It takes courage to push yourself to places that you have never been before, to test your limits, to break through barriers. And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."
* "How wrong is it for a woman to expect man to build the world she wants, rather than set out to create it herself."
* "Creation which cannot express itself becomes madness."
* "Shame is the lie someone told you about yourself."
* "Eroticism is one of the basic means of self-knowledge, as indispensable as poetry."
* "Life is a process of becoming, a combination of states we have to go through. Where people fail is that they wish to elect a state and remain in it. This is a kind of death."
* "The only abnormality is the inability to love."
* "I postpone death by living, by suffering, by error, by risking, by giving, by losing."
* "Each friend represents a world in us, a world not possibly born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born."
* "I am an excitable person who only understands life lyrically, musically, in whom feelings are much stronger as reason. I am so thirsty for the marvelous that only the marvelous has power over me. Anything I cannot transform into something marvelous, I let go. Reality doesn't impress me. I only believe in intoxication, in ecstasy, and when ordinary life shackles me, I escape, one way or another. No more walls."
* "We don't have a language for the senses. Feelings are images, sensations are like musical sounds."
* "The body is an instrument which only gives off music when it is used as a body. Always an orchestra, and just as music traverses walls, so sensuality traverses the body and reaches up to ecstasy."
* "Something is always born of excess: great art was born of great terror, great loneliness, great inhibitions, instabilities, and it always balances them."
* "Dreams are necessary to life."
* "Each contact with a human being is so rare, so precious, one should preserve it."
* "The dream was always running ahead of me. To catch up, to live for a moment with it, that was the miracle."
* "Love is the axis and breath of my life."
List of works
* D. H. Lawrence: An Unprofessional Study
* Collages
* Winter of Artifice
* Under a Glass Bell
* House of Incest
* Delta of Venus
* Little Birds
* Cities of the Interior, in five volumes:
o Ladders to Fire
o Children of the Albatross
o The Four-Chambered Heart
o A Spy in the House of Love
o Seduction of the Minotaur
* The Diary of Anaïs Nin (7 volumes)
* The Early Diary of Anaïs Nin (4 volumes)
* The Novel of the Future
* In Favor of the Sensitive Man
* Henry and June
* Incest: From a Journal of Love
* Fire
* Nearer the Moon
* Aphrodesiac