Events: Embarrassing: a friend and saw my wife out Touhuan
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Anonymous man, 32 years old, love 3-year, two years of marriage, divorce six months. Since his wife's betrayal, he made a gesture of betrayal. While the divorce, because they do not believe in love and fear of love, he chose to back down. But he found that he will never forget that woman ... ...
To be honest, the Pro to the "old trees", and I still hesitate, do not know about this man to see if there really are a "good story" to me? While he said the mail sent to me I will surely be interested in his story, but the story we hear a lot of people moving only because of the so-called move of their own.
To the "old tree" when is 7:25, this time has been packed. In a window seat, I saw a man's back, not see the face, smoking, special alcohol three to five, Zippo lighters, ashtrays have been several cigarette butts in, it seems that he went to for a long time. I walked straight past. Intuitively, I am sure he is about the person I am today.
This is a 30-year-old man, well-dressed, very normal face, but with this age-specific maturity and vicissitudes of life. See me, his faint smile, then bowed that you come? Sit!
Before that we have never seen before. His extraordinary intuition made me his story with interest.
"I can tell you my name, but I do not want it in the newspaper, although I am about to leave the city, but I love a woman who once lived here, so I hope she lives a quiet, undisturbed."
I nodded, and promised him that is not excessive.
He said thank you, and then re-burning of the cigarette smoke began in his narrative, the tone flat, but tired and confused kind of low tone in power.
1, South Lake meet
The total work closely with the network, so the company opened a computer linked to the QQ, I will. QQ Azeri lot, most people do not know, no matter when I will pick some names look "beautiful" netizens, and they make fun of each other a few words, no meaning, purely boring. I am a perfectionist, so generally talked with each other after they are no longer interested in a few --- I would like to continue the conversation they not appeal to the desire to go.
It was the weekend, asking each of us bored with each other arrangements for the next two days of leisure, the final result, we agreed to meet. At that time my wife and I have a lot of emotional barriers, so with her to South Lake for the weekend decided that I almost did not hesitate, do not want to refuse.
We meet in the Jiefangbei a restaurant, because of work reasons, I asked her to wait for two hours. I found her intuition --- a special temperament mature woman, not very pretty, pale, his eyes filled with haggard brow and tired. Late thought would make her angry, did not think she is just indifferent smile.
Along the way she rarely spoke, but I can feel the air of depression and her haggard face pain under the Shen Yun, I do not bother to reveal her intuition told me that she told me she would take the initiative.
Almost dusk when they arrive, registration, she told me only a little surprised to open a house move, but quickly acquiesced. It was a great atmosphere in the cabin, a separate balcony overlooking the lake the lake, it makes me drunk, I soon left the city and comfortable for them.
She is still the case that very little, eat little things, occasionally I smiled, but also make people feel miserable. I am even more curious, in the end what matters is that this woman is so deep, in the end she seems calm hidden behind what?
After dinner, we sat on the balcony adjacent to a lake, a number of broken pieces to talk about irrelevant topics, I can not stand silent two relatively dry and boring, so I told her the primary, secondary, university, my work My girlfriend and I am not a happy marriage. I think that at least she can relax at a flow of fresh air relaxation.
Liu Shao last month, a pool of water, eyes silver, night, wind, and proximity to such a situation, she finally hide his face from crying. And I guess about, she encounters the love of deception. A love of her life has kept the men, said they please, and she has been dedicated to pay, without reservation. She suddenly collapsed. In front of others, she has always been so self-confident and independent, so she closed all the exits, the lock in mind the painful, do not mention to anyone. At that moment, I met her online.
She made it very simple, but the tone of despair and perseverance of love made me shocked. Such a woman should be protected, not to be hurt.
We sat on the balcony late, the water gently slapping the wall under the balcony, her eyes glistening trance me. Several times I was the impulse to want to hold her in my arms and comfort, but I did not do anything. I know, she is persistent, even in the most vulnerable.
3 am, we fall asleep in their bed. The dark, she forcibly repressed sobbing I relented, and I reached gently patted her shoulder, she pushed me to seize the hand, like a drowning person. I sighed deeply, quietly in the dark watching her until she fell asleep. But as long as I will hand out smoke, she would immediately step in horror again. Repeated several times, finally quiet. I am a little chaos, then trance to sleep.
Woke up this morning is the sun over the window, she stood on the balcony, the breeze blowing her thin dress, long hair with the wind. I was surprised to find that she was in high spirits at this time, smiling, and half the man yesterday. Me though, did not sleep well all night, then eyes glazed, emaciated.
She smiled and asked me if I sleep these days, that want to go boating. I am thinking to himself, what kind of woman, ah, actually become so after a night in high spirits, to be honest, I like to see a woman in this state, and this look in his wife who has not seen for a long time.
Home, she told me that she called Ayub.
"Before the mountains had not thought about that strange woman would be, and what occurred, such as the one-night stand?"
"That thought is certainly false, but I am a sensible man, I think I can control the situation." "Some of his first hearty laugh, still lonely.
2, the struggle
Back to reality, life has returned to the previous program, we are still on the exchange of QQ, but I give her the phone and text messages began to rise, because the fear of loneliness, when she re-immersed in the past. Often about the meet, eat drink tea and chat, I feel her gentle and considerate, but also found her emotional and mental state is moving towards a good direction, I am pleased with my efforts paid off, and in her eyes I also saw the look and thanks.
I love this life, if not then those things happen, I think, between me and her will always be happy and may simply live.
The feelings of others really strange, not simply between men and women who said to attract and favor it?
The next morning, I pretend to casually asked his wife what the phone last night, but she calmly said, my dream Luanxiang. If all she can always be honest to me, I will forgive her, but she chose another way. Later, more and more of her anomaly.
After about a week, his wife said that her mother was sick, want to go home to see the evening does not come back. 11 pm, I hit the wife's mother home phone. Panic a bit old, said her daughter was not at home, I asked where to go, she went out to buy her a moment that drug, and while they say play, full of loopholes. I quietly hung up the phone, and then hit his wife's cell phone, shut down! And I expected the same! I calmly premonition that something has arrived.
At the same time, I more and more frequent exchanges Ayub. Make a gesture of betrayal when his wife, and I no longer tied to your behavior, Ayub care and consideration has made me more and more unable to extricate themselves. Everything eventually comfort in a conflict have become complicated.
I was struggling with feelings of the vortex. Although the feelings Jiandan with his wife, but she paid me the most, loved by the best effort to the woman. I said to myself, as long as she can stop doing, I will not pursue the matter, because once loved her, so willing to forgive. For more complex Ailloud my feelings, and her ever-involved with my soft heart. She never made me a break with his wife, but was always persuaded me not to give up on marriage, and sometimes I was not an impulse to reprove his wife, she is always smiling to listen, then help me the analysis of the problem, analysis of to, often end up all my fault. This woman!
Rainy night, his wife not at home, I called Ayub, she is caught in a nondescript melancholy --- She told me her sad rain nightclub. Although near the middle of the night 1:00, but by her emotions, I can not control the way out the door and took a taxi straight to the residence of Ayub.
When she flew into my arms that moment, she and I cried. I know, I have been hopelessly in love with this woman. Then, similar to mad at her suggestion we went to the streets of early morning rain feel the pleasure. In the thin, dense rain, we were holding hands, walking and laughing. Long has no feelings so young, in this rainy night, I like all of a sudden back 18 years. It was like a ghostly woman ah!
After pouring rain back to her there is 3 am, she was afraid of my cold, put me on the bathroom. Crazy night, crazy people, crazy to pay and giving, we can not own some of ... ...
"If your wife was unfaithful, would you continue to develop and Ayub?"
"No," he thought, "should not. Anyway, I think they was a man of morality and a strong sense of responsibility, if the wife loyalty, I am sure will be faithful to her, even though I no longer love her . "smoke, he mused.
3, left
When the feelings gone, marriage is perhaps the best excuse we maintain the situation. Deep down, I still look forward to his wife to go back, as she looked back, I bring in the Ayub on where, but I always refused to think about. I think as long as this situation can be maintained, I categorically will not divorce his wife.
This is a man's selfish.
But soon, one thing has broken my wishful dream.
His wife was a night did not return. 9 am, there will be a friend called, the ambiguous smile: "A man, right? Not get up?"
"You know how I am a man?" I lazily replied.
"Because I was out to see you wife." Clear tone friends joke so I think the situation was serious.
"Where to see? And who? Her a man?" Intuition tells me there are layers of truth are peeled.
"Maybe I was wrong." Friend to hang.
But how can I believe that friends called wrong! In my repeated questioning, friends finally say, 8:30 am, in the Jiefangbei × × hotel door, my wife holding the hand of a man out from the hotel, two very affectionate ... like ...
Has refused to actively pursue the reality is too cruel, in the quiet morning brings me pain, anger, disappointment, and the dignity of a man shattered last --- I'd rather it was I saw, and non-friends.
That day, I have received several friend's phone, are explicitly or implicitly reminded me of this "hotel incident." I surface calm, the heart has long been burned into an inferno, raging anger I like to burn into ashes, and I stood center of the fire, hide no hide.
18:00 to play his wife's phone, I hope that she personally told me that she was in another place last night, not the hotel; is and other people together, not man. But her guilty conscience tone so I smell the smell of truth. Thought I had prepared everything well, has been able to calmly face the fight, but this time I know that this fight is almost fatal, and it mercilessly destroyed the love I managed to maintain the last vestiges of trust.
A week later, my wife and I divorced, the same evening, I have a Ayub, told her what happened this time, and then she said sorry. Ayub is a smart woman, of course, I can understand the so-called sorry. She did not ask why, but her pride does not allow her to say no.
Go out, she almost fell. Hold on to her the moment I saw her tears.
"Do not you think he is very selfish it?"
"Really selfish, but the fear of injury after the assault has been, therefore, only Yingqixinchang." His smile.
4, remorse
I completely fell. I learned to buy Huan, learn to seduce strange women, and different they go to bed, but overnight. This kind of life I anesthesia. But suddenly one occasion, when I faced a strange carcass that no interest Shique, barely for, rush end, so after another several times, but the last time, actually do not move. I understand that my problem is psychological, not physiological.
I am strongly thinking of Ayub, I think she thought of crazy.
But how can I? Back to find her, give her a memory and then leave? When I can not even grasp their own future, I give her how to commit to a future?
Finally beat her phone, but the early morning to evening, the room no one answered the phone has been ringing empty, while the mobile phone has been shut down. All day I have mental state of trance, wondering all the possibilities. About classes, I went straight to her house. Not so much, even if she stopped me at the door, even if she had other men, even if she has forgotten me, and I shall see her!
Black did not shoot the door can move God.
I really do not know where she went, I really want to know where she went. Through all possible means I'm looking for her, but without any results. This time I know how deep love for this woman, perhaps a lifetime, but this love been ruined their own hands.
A friend just asked me to go to Guangzhou, I let friends waiting for me a month, I would like to use this month to search for Ayub, if no results, I would choose to leave. Without love, where are the same.
"Want to Ayub say?"
"I love her!"
End of interview is 11 o'clock at night, music is still, the eyes actually have a trace of weariness. We started a short silence. Men still smoke, the window is the Red men and women, embracing arm pull, do not know that they will remember this night, had to spend with someone? The hands of well-being, once so true!
Difficult to use one word to define this man: he had an affair is a betrayal of the marriage or the compliance of human nature? He fell in love with a selfish or selfless and give up? Was no longer believe in themselves, but no longer believe in love?
But at least, in his narrative, I saw a man heartfelt repentance, and Tolerance of pain in his eyes, is to promote the reasons I wrote this article.
Men can not easily be painful, but the pain must have the cause of suffering.
I hope he's suffering from this he would remember, and understand the meaning of love.
Man concluded that if Ayub see this article, be sure to contact him, phone number change, 24 hours for her turn.
(Editor: olive) |
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