百念皆灰

Explanation: These thoughts have disappeared into ash. Analogy disheartened. 　　Usage: The main predicate; as predicate; containing derogatory 　　Source: Qing Wei Zi "Hua Yue Hen" 38 back: "I read a hundred are now gray, just go see the mother." 　　Examples: Now I ~, just go see the mother. (Qing Wei Zi "Hua Yue Hen" Thirty-eighth back) Thesaurus:  Big loss prestige, be utterly destitute of passions and desires as rotten wood and dead ashes, deadwood dying embers, Wan Nian are silent