言情 》 Respiratory 》
Respiratory
An Nibaobei
呼吸
He is not my friend, but he is with me
Like a shadow is with a foot that falls ... ...
Lin had just met online, I said to him, I am single, living alone in an apartment 38 floors. No
Have a job. Lin asked me, you do for a living. I said, I always stop to take a taxi, hoping in the car
Others picked up the missing black bag, which will have a pack a bag of money. Because there was one, I am picking
To a sum of money.
Where the silent forest. He seemed skeptical. Finally he said to me, or find a job better.
Even if they could meet once a year, so the probability is very small. I laughed alone in front of the computer. He ranks
However, believe me.
Already two in the morning. The room was dark, and only issued a dazzling light display. I heard that
SUZANN EVEGA song. Inside the singer, she is clearly a low-key and out of date. Like a crumpled piece of yellow paper.
Was Xinshou tear. A casual long-standing depression, slow tone, and nervous wood guitar. I think she looked over from the
Private and beautiful.
I asked the forest, you are not fat fat. Lin said that, I'm thin. I said, so good, I like the thin man. Because more than
More sexy.
Say, I raised the volume of the side of the speaker. Empty room, Silence like a stretch of cold
The lake. I was a fish can not breathe.
Five o'clock, I was the forest, I want to sleep. Cute boy, good morning.
I turn off the computer mouse click, and then poured a glass of ice water from the refrigerator, to swallow sleeping pills. Computer screen
Curtain has been stopped, only the speaker issued a disconnection of the noise. Turn off all power switches in the future, my heart suddenly
However, darkness.
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In fact, in addition to the Internet I really do nothing. I have most of the time during the day in bed. Sometimes I
Fear his addiction will sleep in there, suddenly turned into a rubber. No thinking. There is no language.
Weekend, I went to West BLUE. DISCO bars that have opened for a long time, the boss is a Hong Kong
People. Like to go there, in part because of habit. I am a lazy person, not like the new place new friends new thing
Material. Give me the old feeling of security. Part of the reason there is confusion here in particular. Messy music, handsome
Man, cannabis and ecstasy.
DISCO opening half past nine, but I do not dance. Once I tie with a yellow line to play the man dumped
Dice. Men drink beer, I ice water. Result, he lost 1,000 dollars, furious, jumping up and scolded me. I
Smile at him that you do not want to pay no problem, but please shut up. When he turned, I grabbed him
Tie, the Sheng beer glass jar about face smashing his head on.
I hate the contempt of others. I have see for himself.
Later, Luo things to help me _set_tle. Bar owner was his friend.
Luo said, you do not give me trouble. I can give you a little money, you usually walk on the streets 也好.
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I sat barefoot on the balcony. Sunshine on my face, let me dizzy. The sky is so blue. Time is It
Kind of slow. Only two things can make me depressed. Poverty and loneliness. If I get enough money, it only
Lonely.
I can feel his eyes when I do not expect him
In the back seat of a taxi down Vestry Street ... ...
And Lin chat often will I laugh out loud. I already know him a year older than me, Xi'an, the professional
Do software.
Is the kind of reading is a good student, the type of work is good comrades. His simplicity makes me happy. My happiness is
Because I think he sometimes seems silly.
For example, I asked him if he did love. He answered me solemnly, unless the girl he loved. No
Then he will not.
This answer is not people feel stimulation. I make fun of him, you have to take good care of their chastity, free
May regret it.
I think I only chat with online friends is the forest. I do not like new things, new friends and new places.
His tolerance of my indulgence and rude. Occasionally, he sometimes expressed concern. Chatting, I suddenly asked me, are you hungry
Was not. I said no. He said, I'm eating cookies. I imagine the two of us eating biscuits while chatting in the
Look. I say, that you share certain unknowingly gone. He said, I will give you.
Heart suddenly warm it. Is warm and moist. Very light to penetrate the blood in the heart.
The clear water droplets. Sweet taste.
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That summer, the high school senior boys take me to the BLUE. I first went to the dark and noisy bar, I-day
Hobby in the chaos of being met. Just-field when the dance floor no one. I am a man go crazy dancing
Not too fun, take off shirt, wearing only a black lace bra, and climbed high above the speaker. Boiling section
I played in the paralysis of the nerve to be released. Later, more than a hybrid piece of whistles and screaming, I finally
Systemic weakness.
Sitting at the bar, my breathing is still rapid. A man handed me a glass of ice water, he said, I have been
Looking at you. Cold water has been dropped from the throat to the chest, like a hand suddenly gripping my heart.
Lots of joy mixed with pain.
At this moment, I fell in love with the cold ice water excitement. I looked at the dark light of man, he probably
Nearly 40 years old. His smile showing white teeth, like beasts. Then his fingers gently touch
My face. He looked at his fingertips in the transparent beads of sweat, he said, you are tempting me.
I was 17 years old. Black lace bra me or to the students borrowed. Poverty and loneliness have been tortured
I am too long. I almost do not have any hesitation, put his hand on the Law of the heart.
His arm is around my waist and he pulls me down to him
He whispers things into my ear that sound so sweet ... ...
Lin said that, look at this like your man. He put his picture to me. Is a thin handsome man
There is a bright shiny face. The kind of bright, because he's honest.
I looked at him a white shirt. I remember a boy in high school class. I was no one in the class
Ignored. Although I did very well, but like to mix high-grade boys, smoking, dancing, drinking,
Fight, a bad thing and all. And the family complex. He is a squad leader, he liked me. I know I and he was not
The same type of person. I do not want to own a piece of black ink on white paper.
He was later to return to the north to attend college entrance examination, before his departure gate at my house for a long time. I knew he was below.
But I do not go on. Windy night. Early in the morning, I went last night and so he had my big parasol tree
Yellow leaves all over the floor.
I always remember the kind of fragmentation-like pain. No tears. No sound. Only pain.
I suddenly wanted to see the forest. Romania to come to see me in that night. Luo said he was going to Hong Kong tomorrow to meet.
With his wife and son. Probably half a month. I said, yes, happy family trip to Hong Kong. Late at night when
Luo loose skin I touch, middle-aged man's body has an air of decay. In fact, I think this man and I
Has nothing to do. I do not love him. That do not love him.
He is not my soul inside.
I got up to open the computer, I put the CD into it SUZANNE. Her voice was lazy and tired.
ICQ small green flowers in full bloom. I see the forest message. He said, I know the feeling does not meet my cautious
Personality. But I really miss you. You disappear in more than 70 hours inside. Feel completely different.
I put my head back in the chair Yang. I hear my lonely room echoed with laughter.
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I walked through the air ticket when the ticket office, easily bought.
There are six hours away from take-off. Nothing with his hands empty to the airport. I deliberately go to the bathroom
The mirror.
Saw the young girl, old jeans, men's cotton shirts, running shoes, a dark long hair,
Bright eyes white teeth.
Good. My mask was pure sweetness. No one knows my heart, is so pale and decadent, but also
Incomplete.
Im not sure I am 17 years old and people living together. I do not know Kuanghe abuse mixed in with the bar drunk. I do not know for money
Smoking fight drug abuse. He most like to drink a glass of ice water that I can sleep, and eager to have once in a year
Taxis get ill-gotten gains.
Above the plane, I fell asleep. I was dreaming. Familiar with that dream. In the windy night, to see
The boy's white shirt under the tree. After hiding in the window I see him. I want to go see him. But I controlled myself.
16 years old, I know that some will not have to pay ending. Some people are destined not his own. The kind of gentle
Melancholy mood. The kind of pain.
Xianyang airport, sudden change in weather. Under the heavy rain and cold. To find his house, I have
After wet. I called his name downstairs. He stuck his head out to see, I found that he is really fast
Music together.
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The first night we had sex. I want him to do. I do not know why you want to. The body of a strange forest
And warm. The young man's body, a healthy and active. Good. I struggle with him, hope he come back again
Years, unable to stop.
I said to him, you can not regret now, I'm your virginity has been destroyed.
Lin said that, then you should be responsible to me, do not abandon me. He smiled at me. He said you have been online
Seem
Alternative and the vicissitudes of life. But to see you, I think you're just a little girl, in need of care, and sweet.
Woke up this morning, he went to work, I am at home to his laundry, cooking. And then watering the flowers on the balcony,
Or sitting there watching his magazine. Night he came back to dinner, and then went for a walk. Very quiet life.
Weekend, we went to the Mountain. Standing on top of sunshine, I looked at the vast and treacherous, sudden
However, like tears. My life had been deformed in the dark flowers in full bloom. The world has such a beautiful scenery.
I have reduced the dark of the night in the city.
Sky path along the cliff is one of the most breathtaking sights of Huashan. Pallet planks out of a narrow cliff
Narrow path along the cliff.
If you accidentally fall off, no bones to find. This is more than stuff like bungee jumping more exciting. No
Protection, only one life and death in the above games.
Many people in the next to watch. Lin also said next, leaving Mania go home, this place is too dangerous. But
I like the chaos of evil and the on_set_ of stimulation. I said, I'm going.
Lin tried to dissuade me. I say, walk like. Certainly all right. I am ready to pull down iron chains. Lin looked at
Me, his expression became serious. Then go. He said. Then keep a few people. A squad
People.
The kind of feeling attached to the cliff can not put into words. Gale strong swing between the cliff. Sky, death,
Heartbeat, together, the people who have lost weight. The original, original, life is so fragile
Things. Any moment there will be a small loss may be. I heard their unbridled laughter. Hair
Flying around in the wind.
Walk along the cliff, the end result is a small cliff. There are a small Buddha carved in rock.
People can sign up and reach the heart of the desire to write. I have always been people who do not desire. I asked the forest, you have to do
To sign one. Lin said, you know I have what I thought.
He looked at me, he said, I suddenly knew death could not get rid of love I have for you.
His hand is on my back when I step from the sidewalk
Or when I am walking down these darkened halls ... ...
7 days later, I return to the South. World damp cold night rain. A taxi drove the familiar streets, I
Heart began to suppress. Rain on the window glass slide line by line. 38 of the top layer of dark and lonely
Room, I felt fear.
Opened the door, the phone rang. Lin once again heard the voice of cool and bright, if the dream has suddenly blurred. Lin said,
Ann, I think I have to ask you. Ask you to Xi'an life, be my wife.
The sound is bright sunshine and the Peak linked. A warm and stable family life, with love
Their young men. I have no doubt his sincerity. He is the most honest and sincere in this century, a man
People. Now in my life.
I always thought my life had no chance.
I said okay.
He said he could. You come get a job with us. Live happily in peace.
I felt cold, rain drop by drop to play down the hair on the face. I heard the forest for me to marry him.
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Back dark lonely life is simply unbearable.
But I controlled myself. I forced myself to think of some practical problems. Such as the forest is a software, he
May never be rich, but I'm used to go shopping in the afternoon of boredom, one shot will be used more than 800 pieces
Buy a bottle of perfume. Lin does not think my life is so unchecked. I started over 17 years of my life Zloty supply
Live. Dark, extravagance, indulgence uninhibited.
My body, heart is rotten scar.
It began to temper my temper. Because they are unable to grasp and foreboding future. The phone late at night,
The forest incoherent. I said, I probably could not find work. I have not done something out. I even
Why not do it. I do not know how
With people. I did have was a waste.
Lin encouraged me, but Ann, you're a smart girl-clear, you have to believe in themselves.
I said, I do not understand you. I do not believe man. If you are not good for me since I was not trying to do nothing
Have to come back?
Sigh at the end of the line gently Lin, Ann, do not hurt yourself at the same time to hurt someone else. Good or bad.
OK? OK? OK?
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Romania came back, I refused he touched my body. So many years. This is the first time.
Law seems to be conscious, he said, what decisions do you have.
I said, I'm leaving. I do not want in this city inside. Do not want to be with you.
Lo smiled lightly, to fly away, start a new life? His eyes narrowed slightly, which makes his
Eyes suddenly seemed sharp and vicious. He said, why did you grow up it will become stupid.
I felt my bones gurgling sound. I hate people despise me, because I have see for himself.
I looked at him coldly, and I said, I do not take anything. I want to leave.
Luo, wrapped my arm, he said, you start from the age of seventeen I spent the money back, he because the gas
Anger flawless. I pushed him mercilessly. I said, you're seventeen, I first began to be occupied your time
Back to me.
He is a thin man, with a date for me
To arrive at some point, I do not know when it will be ... ...
Well big rain. I ran across the wide street, regardless of traffic lights, fast to run. The sound of car brakes
Angry cursing jostling. But I do not hear anything, also do not see anything.
I just wanted to call the forest thousands of miles away. I want to tell him that I could give up all for him, I can self-
By, I can go to Xi'an, I can marry him.
I felt my heart beating and blood heated. Full of vitality and passion.
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West has been run around to find a public phone booth. I jammed into the hands because of cold and stiff.
Phone is a long tone, but no one answered. I heard the bell rang for a long time, and finally broken. Why did not I think Lin
Go home, now a 21:00. Maybe he was working overtime. Lin told me that he was looking for a part-time.
He wanted to earn a little money of my arrival.
I leaned against the glass waiting. The whole city was submerged in the vast rain inside. Like an empty container,
Floating in the dark sea. Cold in my skirt attached to the body, as long as the wind blows over, I felt fat on the cold
Shaking. But everything will be OK. I think. Maybe tomorrow I can appear in Xi'an. That quiet old
City. Tall clock tower in the twilight there is always a group of nocturnal spinner. Forest of Stone Tablets pervaded the book near the Mexican stone street
Fragrance. Lin there holding my hand walking.
This is what I want, plain and bright life. Simple and plain, but warm. Overlooking the forest over gently and kiss me
Face. He loved me in every moment. How scared I am a lonely person. I have been lonely.
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Then there are three men close to me. I can not see their faces. Standing in front only to see that bar
With a dazzling yellow tie. He said, you finally appeared. Turbidity of the alcohol he sprayed in my face. I
Had a chance to recall his identity, when a sharp cold hard devices tie into my soft belly. Then
Suddenly the body was filled by a stream of warm. Exceptional comfort and pleasure. I reached up and pushed him close to
My body, I saw his yellow tie, scarlet painted above the liquid.
Coax the flash of a man. All the moments that only a short three minutes.
I Shou Wu in the wound. Where there have been warm and tired of the blood spewing out thick. I also plug in the phone card
Machine inside. I think I should be able to continue to give Lam dial. But my body is slowly slide down along the glass slide
Down. Gradual loss of weight that feeling as if I am walking in the cliff, like a gale.
Lin asked me, you know just what I thought.
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