言情 》 杀 Kill 》
杀 Kill
安妮宝贝 An Nibaobei
Kill 是一种钝重的沉闷的声音。他的头突然倾斜。黑暗中他缓慢地转过脸来。 血象一只手掌,无声地掌控了他的额头。他看着她。他轻声地说,你在干什么。 他的眼睛一如既往的冷漠。 她又听见自己的骨头,发出咯咯断裂的声音。那困扰了她很久的幻觉。并不妨 碍她体会自己眼泪的温暖。凌晨两点的夏天,风中有甜美的植物清香。她憎恨这个 男人再次给她以寂静的背影。一次次把她遗失在黑暗里。在他摇晃着试图向门外走 去的时候,她举起手中的扳手,再次给他以致命的一击。 他只发出一声短促的低声呻吟。温热的液体四处飞溅,散发出眼泪所没有的粘 稠芳香。她确定他的身体里已经没有眼泪可以给她。但是鲜血却可以这样的缠绵。 她的头发,她的眼睛,她的手心,她的肌肤。终于又感受到他的抚摸。如此无所不 在。如此快乐。 ※ ※ ※ 她一个人在房间里走来走去,听到皮肤在孤独中扭曲的声音。她在冰箱里堆满 了苹果。有时候一边啃着冰冷的苹果,一边轻轻的笑。他的爱情对她并不重要。可 是她渴望他的抚摸。她能够听到自己骨头发出的声音。只有他温柔或者粗暴的手才 能平息这种恐惧。 是和林分离的那一个夜晚开始。林说,跟我走。在空荡荡的深夜的车站里,林 解开他的棉风衣的扣子,把她裹在温暖的气息里。她闭上眼睛。在闭上眼睛的时候, 她才确信自己的安全。没有人带走林的诺言。没有人可以带走时间。 她从车站回到和他同居了四年的房子。她突然感觉到寒冷。她企求他与她做爱。 他说,为什么你不跟林走。他的眼睛下面有一道红色的伤疤。在和林的摊牌中,他 突然出手。整个手敲在玻璃上面,血流如注。她只是寂寞地看着他。她想他们已把 彼此逼得无路可走。可是依然彼此需要。伤口对着伤口。恨对着恨。 她花朵一样柔软洁白的身体,散发他渐渐生疏的清香。把手指狠狠地掐在上面, 留下枯萎的褐色印痕。她在疼痛中安静地微笑着。闭上眼睛,一片黑暗。只有告别 后的爱情还在。如果他能够原谅她。她想。她不愿意他站在阴影里,垂着一只鲜血 淋漓的手。可是,她忘记她本身就是他最大的阴影。 ※ ※ ※ 他说,我已经无法和你做爱。他用指尖轻轻地推开她。我要看着你枯萎。 他终于轻轻地笑。她再次微微晕眩地闭上眼睛。在黑暗中伸手抚摸自己的皮肤, 丝缎一样光滑冰凉的皮肤。因为绝望而象花瓣一样地干涸着。她终于习惯倾听它们 在寂静中发出的声音。咯咯的断裂的声音,无声地扭曲中。林说,你是这样美丽的 女子。林的眼光无限宛转。林的气息终于逐渐淡泊。留下支离破碎的残局。他和她 面对。 ※ ※ ※ 他压住她的手臂,把点燃的烟头摁在她的背上,听她发出猫一样的尖叫。 这是一个他喜欢的游戏。他说,为什么你不跟林走,告诉我。他一边问,一边 换一块皮肤再摁下去。她看不到自己背上的伤痕。就象她不知道她可以负担的绝望 可以多重。走在大街明亮的阳光下面,她和任何年轻的女孩一样。漆黑的长发,丝 缎般的肌肤,白裙飞舞。她想,她还可以正常地爱一次。真正的正常健康地爱一次。 当他把冰凉的红酒倾倒在她的皮肤上,酒精灼痛她溃烂的伤口。她只是无法容忍他 把她独自留在黑暗之中。孤独的感觉使她崩溃。在那个寒冷的冬夜,在从空荡荡的 车站转身的时候。她想象着林遗留的温暖气息。 她想到了死亡。她有了堕入黑暗的预感。天空中突然有灿烂的烟火闪过。她以 为自己可以就这样生活下去。 ※ ※ ※ 她对他说,别离开我。那次她发烧。她是个孤儿,十七岁开始和他同居。 他一直是她生活中唯一一个男人。直到林的出现。他深夜抱着她去医院急诊。 她在他的怀里轻得象一只栖息下来的鸟。她身上的伤口开始发炎。那一次昏迷 持续了整整一天一夜。她醒过来的时候,看到他在她的身边。他冷漠地俯下脸说, 我不会放了你。可是我也无法再好好地对你。或者你杀了我。你杀了我你才会自由。 我也会自由。然后他匆猝地别过脸去。有温暖的液体滴落在她的脸上。那是他唯一 的一滴眼泪。 ※ ※ ※ 她并不是刻意要杀他。她想。他强迫她去精神病院看病,强迫她吃药。 可是她觉得自己没有病。她只是想让他抚摸她。她渴望他能够抚摸她,而不是 把她一个人留在黑暗中。她听到自己身体发出咯咯断裂的声音,有时她只是恐惧地 轻声呼吸。很多时候,她都是安静的。她只是对他说,别离开我。 那个凌晨,她也是这样低声地企求着,然后举起扳手,用力地敲向他离去的背 影。 ※ ※ ※ 在他迅速冰凉下去的脸颊旁边,她伏下身轻轻地对他说,我不跟林走,只是不 想和他说再见。我憎恨别离。
Is a blunt heavy dull sound. Suddenly tilted his head. In the darkness he slowly turned to. Blood like a hand, silently control of his forehead. He looked at her. He said softly, you're doing. His eyes were always cold. She also heard their bones broken gurgling sound. That troubled her long illusion. And may wish to Hinder her feel the warmth of my tears. Two in the morning in the summer, the wind in the sweet fragrance of plants. She hated the Man once again the back of her silence. Time and again lost her in the dark. Shaking in his attempt to walk to the door Go, she raised her hand wrench, again to give him a fatal blow. He only gave a short whispered moan. Warm splash of liquid, gives off tears that are not sticky Thick aroma. She identified his body has no tears to give her. However, it can be a lingering blood. Her hair, her eyes, her hands, her skin. Finally they feel his touch. So nothing is At. So happy. ※ ※ ※ A man she walked in the room, I heard the skin in solitude distorted sound. She filled in the fridge Apple. Sometimes the gnawing cold apple, while gently smiling. His love is not important to her. Can His desire to touch her. She could hear the sound of his bones. Only his hands are gentle or rough To calm the fear. And Lin is the one night began to separate. Lin said, follow me. Night in the empty station, Lin Unlock the buttons of his coat of cotton, wrapped her in a warm atmosphere. She closed her eyes. When eyes were closed, She was convinced that their own safety. Lin does not take away the promise. No one can take time. She returned to live with him from the station house for four years. She suddenly felt cold. She begged him with her sex. He said, why do not you go with the forest. His eyes beneath a red scar. And forests in the showdown, he Suddenly shot. Knock on the glass above the hand, bleeding profusely. She just looked at him lonely. She wanted them to have Forced each other no way out. Still we need each other. Wound against the wound. Hate against hate. Like her soft, white flowers in the body, emitting the fragrance of his getting rusty. Severely pinch the fingers on the top Leaves withered brown prints. Pain in her quiet smile. Close your eyes, a darkness. Only farewell After the love is still there. If he can forgive her. She thought. She did not want him standing in the shadows, hanging a blood Dripping hand. However, she forgot her own shadow is his greatest. ※ ※ ※ He said, I have been unable to make love to you. He opened with a finger gently push her. I want to watch you wither. He finally smiled lightly. She again to close your eyes a little dizzy. In the dark hand touch his skin, Skin as smooth and cool satin. Because the same despair as to dry the petals. She got used to listening to them Voice in the silence. Fracture giggle sound, silent distortions. Lin said, you are so beautiful Woman. Lin's vision of infinite reverberates. Last breath of the forest gradually indifferent. Leave a fragmented mess. He and She Face. ※ ※ ※ He suppressed her arm, pressed the lit cigarette in her back, listening to her scream like a cat issue. This is one of his favorite games. He said, why do not you go with the forest, let me know. He asked, while For a piece of skin and then press down. She could not see the scars on his back. As she did not know she can afford despair Can be multiple. Walk in the street below the bright sunlight, she, like any young girl. Dark hair, silk Satin-like skin, white skirt flying. She wanted to, you can still love her once. True love once healthy. When he poured red wine cold on her skin, alcohol burning her festering wound. She just can not bear his Her alone in the dark. The feeling of loneliness made her collapse. In that cold winter night, from the empty When the station turned. She imagined the warm breath of the remaining forest. She thought of death. She had grown dark sense of foreboding. The sky suddenly flashed bright fireworks. She As they can to live like this. ※ ※ ※ She said to him, do not leave me. That her fever. She is an orphan, seventeen years old began to live with him. He has been the only man in her life. Until the emergence of forest. He held her to a hospital emergency room late at night. Her in his arms like a light down a habitat for birds. Her wounds began to inflammation. That a coma Continued for a whole day and night. She woke up, saw him at her side. He reached down and face and said coldly, I will not let you go. But I can not longer properly for you. Or you kill me. You kill me and you free. I will also free. Then he looked over his left hurried hurried manner. A warm liquid dripping on her face. That was his only Shed a tear. ※ ※ ※ She did not intentionally kill him. She thought. He forced her to a mental hospital to see a doctor, forced her to take medicine. But she did not feel sick. She just wanted him to touch her. She longed for him to touch her, rather than Her alone in the dark. She heard his broken body gurgling sounds, and sometimes she just fear Softly breathing. Very often, she is quiet. She just said to him, do not leave me. That morning, she whispered to seek the same way, and then raised his wrench, knocking him hard to go back Shadow. ※ ※ ※ Rapid cool down in his cheek next to her Fuxia Shen said to him gently, I do not go with the forest, but not Want to say goodbye to him. I hate to leave.
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