I held you
through all your shifts
of structure: while your bones turned
from caved rock back to marrow,
the dangerous
fur faded to hair
the bird's cry died in your throat
the treebark paled from your skin
the leaves from your eyes
till you limped back again
to daily man:
a lounger on streetcorners
in iron-shiny gabardine
a leaner on stale tables;
at night a twitching sleeper
dreaming of crumbs and rinds and a sagging woman
caged by a sour bed.
The early
languages are obsolete.
These days we keep
our distances:
sparring in the vacant spaces
of peeling rooms
and rented minutes, climbing
all the expected stairs, our voices
abraded with fatigue,
our bodies wary.
Shrunk by my disbelief
you cannot raise
the green gigantic skies, resume
the legends of your disguise:
this shape is final.
Now, when you come near
attempting towards me across
these sheer cavernous
inches of air
your flesh has no more stories
or surprises;
my face flinches
under the sarcastic
tongues of your estranging
fingers,
the caustic remark of your kiss.
through all your shifts
of structure: while your bones turned
from caved rock back to marrow,
the dangerous
fur faded to hair
the bird's cry died in your throat
the treebark paled from your skin
the leaves from your eyes
till you limped back again
to daily man:
a lounger on streetcorners
in iron-shiny gabardine
a leaner on stale tables;
at night a twitching sleeper
dreaming of crumbs and rinds and a sagging woman
caged by a sour bed.
The early
languages are obsolete.
These days we keep
our distances:
sparring in the vacant spaces
of peeling rooms
and rented minutes, climbing
all the expected stairs, our voices
abraded with fatigue,
our bodies wary.
Shrunk by my disbelief
you cannot raise
the green gigantic skies, resume
the legends of your disguise:
this shape is final.
Now, when you come near
attempting towards me across
these sheer cavernous
inches of air
your flesh has no more stories
or surprises;
my face flinches
under the sarcastic
tongues of your estranging
fingers,
the caustic remark of your kiss.