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马丁·伊登 Martin Eden
  集中反映美国著名现实主义作家杰克·伦敦创作思想中积极和消极这两方面因素的,还是他的代表作——发表于1909年的长篇小说《马丁·伊登》。
  在这部带有自传色彩的长篇小说中,杰克·伦敦不但倾注了他的全部心血,写下了自己如何在平庸的资产阶级鄙夷下含辛茹苦地读书和写作的经历,也尽情阐释了他个人的混杂着马克思主义的阶级观、斯宾塞的社会达尔文主义和尼采的“超人”说的社会见解。
  马丁·伊登是一名远洋航船上的水手。他在一个偶然的机会中,结识了露丝一家人,并深深地爱上了这位文科大学生,把她当成了理想的恋人。为了让自己和对方匹配,他发奋读书,用文化知识,尤其是各种哲学思想,来武装自己。他觉得自己的经历一定会引起人们的兴趣,而自己的观点也亟待向人们表达,于是便认真学习和练习写作。但他的尝试一次又一次地失败,生活上也潦倒到了山穷水尽的地步;尽管时常饿得发昏,连外衣也典当了,他仍不顾一切地读书和写作。他的姐姐、房东和工人朋友虽然喜欢他和同情他,却不理解他,而那帮上层社会的绅士淑女,则对他百般嘲笑和揶揄,但他一往直前,坚持走自己的路。就他这种艰苦奋斗、自强不息的精神而论,是积极的。


  Martin Eden (1909) is a novel by American author Jack London, about a struggling young writer. It was first serialized in the Pacific Monthly magazine from September 1908 to September 1909, and subsequently published in book form by The Macmillan Company in September 1909.
  
  This book is a favorite among writers, who relate to Martin Eden's speculation that when he mailed off a manuscript, 'there was no human editor at the other end, but a mere cunning arrangement of cogs that changed the manuscript from one envelope to another and stuck on the stamps,' returning it automatically with a rejection slip.
  
  While some readers believe there is some resemblance between them, an important difference between Jack London and Martin Eden is that Martin Eden rejects socialism (attacking it as 'slave morality'), and relies on a Nietzschean individualism. In a note to Upton Sinclair, Jack London wrote, "One of my motifs, in this book, was an attack on individualism (in the person of the hero). I must have bungled, for not a single reviewer has discovered it."
  
  Plot summary
  
  Living in Oakland at the dawn of the 20th century, Martin Eden struggles to rise far above his destitute circumstances through an intense and passionate pursuit of self-education in order to achieve a coveted place among the literary elite. The main driving force behind Martin Eden's efforts is his love for Ruth Morse. Because Eden is a sailor from a working class background, and the Morses are a bourgeois family, a union between them would be impossible until he reaches their level of wealth and perceived cultural, intellectual refinement.
  
  Just before the literary establishment discovers Eden’s talents as a writer and lavishes him with the fame and fortune that he had incessantly promised Ruth (for the last two years) would come, she loses her patience and rejects him in a wistful letter: "if only you had settled down…and attempted to make something of yourself." When the publishers and the bourgeois - the very ones who shunned him - are finally at his feet, Martin has already begrudged them and become jaded by unrequited toil and love. Instead of enjoying his success, Eden retreats into a quiet indifference, only interrupted to mentally rail against the genteelness of bourgeois society or to donate his new wealth to working class friends and family.
  
  The novel ends with Martin Eden committing suicide by drowning, a detail which undoubtedly contributed to what researcher Clarice Stasz calls the 'biographical myth' that Jack London's own death was a suicide.
  
  Joan London noted that "ignoring its tragic ending," the book is often regarded as "a 'success' story...which inspired not only a whole generation of young writers but other different fields who, without aid or encouragement, attained their objectives through great struggle."
  Main characters
  Martin Eden
  
  A former sailor from a working class background who falls in love with a young bourgeois woman and decides to educate himself at becoming a writer, so he can win her hand in marriage.
  Ruth Morse
  
  The young bourgeois woman attending university who captivates Eden while tutoring him in English. Though she is initially both attracted and repelled by his working class background, she eventually decides that she loves him. The two become engaged but not without condition: they cannot marry until her parents approve of his financial and social status.
  Lizzie Connolly
  
  The cannery worker who is rejected by Eden, who is already in love with Ruth. Initially, when Martin strives to attain education and to reach to the "higher-culture", in his mind, Lizzie's rough hands mark her out as inferior to Ruth. Despite this, Lizzie remains devoted to Eden. He feels an attachment to her because she loves him for who he is, and not for the fame or money (unlike Ruth). Lizzie loved him from the beginning before he was rich and famous and trying to better himself.
  Joe Dawson
  
  Eden's boss at the laundry, who wins Eden over with his cheeriness and capacity for work, but lacks any ambition for self-improvement.
  Russ Brissenden
  
  Eden's sickly writer counterpart, who encourages Eden to give up writing and return to the sea before city life swallows him up. A committed socialist, he introduces Eden to a group of amateur philosophers he calls the 'real dirt'. Brissenden’s final work - 'Ephemera' - causes a literary sensation when Eden breaks his word and publishes it upon the writer's death.
  Major themes
  Social Class
  
  Social class - and Eden's perceptions of it - is a very important theme in the novel. Eden is a sailor from a working class background, who feels uncomfortable but inspired when he first meets the bourgeois Morse family. Spurred on by his love for Ruth Morse, he embarks on a program of self-education, with the aim of becoming a renowned writer and winning Ruth's hand in marriage. As his education progresses, Eden finds himself increasingly distanced from his working class background and surroundings. Notably, he is repelled by the hands of Lizzie Connolly, who works in a cannery. Eventually, when Eden finds that his education has far surpassed that of the bourgeoisie he looked up to, he finds himself more isolated than ever. Paul Berman observes that Eden’s inability to reconcile his "past and present" versions- "a wealthy Martin of the present who is civilized and clean, and a proletarian Martin of the past who is a fistfighting barbarian" - causes his descent into a delirious ambivalence.
  Machinery
  
  Aside from the machines that toughened Lizzie Connolly's hands, Jack London conjures-up a series of allusions to the workings of machinery in the novel. Machinery eats up people, vitality and creativity. To Eden, the magazine editors operated a machine which sent out seemingly endless rejection slips. When Eden works in a laundry with Joe, he works with machines but feels himself to be a cog in a larger machine. Similarly, Eden's Blickensdorfer typewriter gradually becomes an extension of his body. When he finally achieves literary success, Eden sets up his friends with machinery of their own, and Lizzie tells him "Something's wrong with your think-machine."
  Individualism Versus Socialism
  
  Although Jack London was a socialist, he invested the semi-autobiographical character of Martin Eden with a strong dose of individualism. Eden comes from a working class background, but he seeks self-improvement, rather than an improvement for his class as a whole. Quoting Friedrich Nietzsche and Herbert Spencer, he rejects the 'slave morality' of socialism, even at socialist meetings. However, London was keen to stress that it was this individualism that eventually led to Eden's suicide. He described the novel as a parable of a man who had to die "not because of his lack of faith in God, but because of his lack of faith in men."
  Background
  
  When Jack London wrote Martin Eden at age 33, he had already achieved international acclaim with The Call of the Wild, The Sea-Wolf and White Fang. However, London quickly became disillusioned with his fame and set sail through the South Pacific on a self-designed ketch called the Snark. On the grueling two-year voyage - as he struggled with tiredness and bowel diseases - he wrote Martin Eden, filling its pages with his frustrations, adolescent gangfights and struggles for artistic recognition. The character of Ruth Morse was modelled on Mabel Applegarth - the first love of London's life.
  Quotes
  
  ~ His mood was essentially religious. He was humble and meek, filled with self-disparagement and abasement. In such frame of mind sinners come to the penitent form. He was convicted of sin. But as the meek and lowly at the penitent form catch splendid glimpses of their future lordly existence, so did he catch similar glimpses of the state he would gain to by possessing her. But this possession of her was dim and nebulous and totally different from possession as he had known it. Ambition soared on mad wings, and he saw himself climbing the heights with her, sharing thoughts with her, pleasuring in beautiful and noble things with her.
  
  ~ Martin Eden, with blood still crawling from contact with his brother-in-law, felt his way along the unlighted back hall and entered his room, a tiny cubbyhole with space for a bed, a wash-stand, and one chair. Mr. Higginbotham was too thrifty to keep a servant when his wife could do the work. Besides, the servant’s room enabled them to take in two boarders instead of one. Martin placed the Swinburne and Browning on the chair, took off his coat, and sat down on the bed. A screeching of asthmatic springs greeted the weight of his body, but he did not notice them. He started to take off his shoes, but fell to staring at the white plaster wall opposite him, broken by long streaks of dirty brown where rain had leaked through the roof. On this befouled background visions began to flow and burn. He forgot his shoes and stared long, till his lips began to move and he murmured, “Ruth.”
  
  ~ It was the rejection slips that completed the horrible machinelikeness of the process. These slips were printed in stereotyped forms and he had received hundreds of them—as many as a dozen or more on each of his earlier manuscripts. If he had received one line, one personal line, along with one rejection of all his rejections, he would have been cheered. But not one editor had given that proof of existence. And he could conclude only that there were no warm human men at the other end, only mere cogs, well oiled and running beautifully in the machine.
  
  ~ But there was little time in which to marvel. All Martin’s consciousness was concentrated in the work. Ceaselessly active, head and hand, an intelligent machine, all that constituted him a man was devoted to furnishing that intelligence. There was no room in his brain for the universe and its mighty problems. All the broad and spacious corridors of his mind were closed and hermetically sealed. The echoing chamber of his soul was a narrow room, a conning tower, whence were directed his arm and shoulder muscles, his ten nimble fingers, and the swift-moving iron along its steaming path in broad, sweeping strokes, just so many strokes and no more, just so far with each stroke and not a fraction of an inch farther, rushing along interminable sleeves, sides, backs, and tails, and tossing the finished shirts, without rumpling, upon the receiving frame. And even as his hurrying soul tossed, it was reaching for another shirt. This went on, hour after hour, while outside all the world swooned under the overhead California sun. But there was no swooning in that superheated room. The cool guests on the verandas needed clean linen.
  
  ~ What did love have to do with Ruth’s divergent views on art, right conduct, the French Revolution, or equal suffrage? They were mental processes, but love was beyond reason; it was superrational. He could not belittle love. He worshipped it. Love lay on the mountain-tops beyond the valley-land of reason. It was a sublimates condition of existence, the topmost peak of living, and it came rarely. Thanks to the school of scientific philosophers he favored, he knew the biological significance of love; but by a refined process of the same scientific reasoning he reached the conclusion that the human organism achieved its highest purpose in love, that love must not be questioned, but must be accepted as the highest guerdon of life. Thus, he considered the lover blessed over all creatures, and it was a delight to him to think of “God’s own mad lover,” rising above the things of earth, above wealth and judgment, public opinion and applause, rising above life itself and “dying on a kiss.”
  
  ~ “Nietzsche was right. I won’t take the time to tell you who Nietzsche was, but he was right. The world belongs to the strong—to the strong who are noble as well and who do not wallow in the swine-trough of trade and exchange. The world belongs to the true nobleman, to the great blond beasts, to the noncompromisers, to the ‘yes-sayers.’ And they will eat you up, you socialists—who are afraid of socialism and who think yourselves individualists. Your slave-morality of the meek and lowly will never save you.—Oh, it’s all Greek, I know, and I won’t bother you any more with it. But remember one thing. There aren’t half a dozen individualists in Oakland, but Martin Eden is one of them.”
  
  ~ He looked again at the open port. Swinburne had furnished the key. Life was ill, or, rather, it had become ill—an unbearable thing. “That dead men rise up never!” That line stirred him with a profound feeling of gratitude. It was the one beneficent thing in the universe. When life became an aching weariness, death was ready to soothe away to everlasting sleep. But what was he waiting for? It was time to go.
  
  ~"But that character, that Wiki-Wiki, why do you make him talk so roughly? Surely it will offend your readers, and surely that is why the editors are justified in refusing your work."
  
   "Because the real Wiki-Wiki would have talked that way."
  
   "But it is not good taste."
  
   "It is life," he replied bluntly. "It is real. It is true. And I must write life as I see it."
  
  ~"There was a long rumble of sound, and it seemed to him that he was falling down a vast and interminable stairway. And somewhere at the bottom he fell into darkness. That much he knew. He had fallen into darkness. And at the instant he knew, he ceased to know."
第一章
  那人用弹簧锁钥匙开门走了进去,后面跟着一个年轻人。年轻人笨拙地脱下了便帽。他穿一身粗布衣服,带着海洋的咸味。来到这宽阔的大汀他显然感到拘束,连帽子也不知道怎么处置。正想塞进外衣口袋,那人却接了过去。接得自然,一声不响,那笨拙的青年心里不禁感激,“他明白我,”他心想,“他会帮我到底的。”
   他摇晃着肩膀跟在那人身后走着,两条腿不自觉地叉开,仿佛平坦的地板在随着波涛左右倾侧,上下颠簸,那宽阔的房间似乎装不下他那晃动的脚步。他心里还暗自紧张,怕他那巨大的肩膀会撞上门框或是把矮架上的小摆设拂到地上。他在家具什物之间东躲西闪,原本只存在他心中的恐惧又成倍地增加了。在屋子正中堆满书籍的桌子和钢琴之间分明有可容六个人并行的空间,可他走过时却仍提心吊胆。他的两条粗壮的胳膊松松地挂在身旁,不知道怎么处置。他正在紧张却发现一条胳膊几乎撞到摞在桌面的书上,便如受惊的马一样往旁边一个趔趄,几乎碰翻了琴凳。他望着前面的人轻松自在的步伐,第一次意识到自己走路和别人不同,步履蹒跚,不禁感到难堪,前额上沁出了豆大的汗珠。他停下脚步用手巾擦着晒成青铜色的脸。
   “慢着,亚瑟,老兄,”他想说句俏皮话掩饰心中的紧张,“我这次突然来,你家的人肯定受不了。让我定定神吧!你知道我并不想来,我琢磨着你家的人也未必急于见我。”
   “别担心,”亚瑟安慰道,“不要为我家的人紧张。我们都是不讲究的人——嗨,我还有一封信呢!”
   他回到桌边,拆开信,看了起来,给了客人机会镇定镇定。那客人心里有数,也很感激。他天生善于同情人、理解人。目前在他那惊煌的外表下仍然体察着对方。他擦干前额,摆出平静的样子向四面看了看。眼里却掩饰不住一种野兽害怕陷阱的神气。他从来没有见过的事物包围了他,他害怕发生什么情况,无法应付。他意识到自己脚步难看、举止笨拙,害怕自己所有的属性和能力也出现类似的缺陷。他极为敏感,有着无可奈何的自我意识。那人偏又越过信纸饶有兴味地偷偷打量着他,那目光像匕首一样戳得他生疼。他看得清清楚楚,却不动声色,因为他经受过自我约束的训练。那“匕首”也伤害了他的自尊。他咒骂自己不该来,却也决心既然来了无论出现什么情况也要挺住。他脸上的线条僵住了,眼里闪出拼搏的光,更加满不在乎地打量着四周的一切。他目光敏锐,这漂亮厅堂里的每一个细节都在他脑子里记录下来。他大睁着双眼,目光所及丝毫不漏。目光既痛饮着那内室之美,眼里拼搏的光便渐渐隐敌,泛出几分温暖。他对美敏感,而这里又多的是让他敏感的东西。
   一幅油画抓住了他的注意。怒涛澎湃,拍击着一片横空斜出的峭壁;孕育着风暴的黑云低垂,布满天空;浪涛线外一艘领港船正乘风前进,船身倾斜,甲板上的一切都清晰可辨。背景是一个风暴将至的薄暮的天空。那画很美,它无可抗拒地吸引了他。他忘掉了自己难看的步伐,向画幅走去。逼近画幅时,画上的美却消失了。他一脸迷惑,瞠目望着那一片仿佛是胡涂乱抹的色彩退开了。可面上全部的美又立即闪了回来。“玩噱头,”他转身走开,想道,在纷至沓来的众多印象之中却也有时间感到一种义愤:为什么要拿这么多的美来玩噱头?他不懂得画,他平生见过的只有彩色石印和石版画,远看近看总是轮廓分明线条清晰的。他也见过油画,不错,那是在橱窗里,可橱窗玻璃却不让他那双急于看个明白的眼睛靠得太近。
   他瞥了一眼在读信的朋友和桌上的书,眼里立即闪出一种期待和渴望的光,有如饥饿的人看到了食物。他冲动地迈出一大步,双肩左右一晃扑到了桌边,急切地翻起书来。他看书名,看作者名,读了些片断,用眼和手爱抚着书卷,只有一次他认出了一本读过的书,别的书他却全都陌生,作者也陌生。他偶然翻起了一本史文朋,开始连续地读,读得脸上闪光。忘了自已在什么地方。他两欢用食指插着合上书看,作者的名字,史文朋!他要记住这个名字。这家伙很有眼光,他肯定把捉住了色彩和闪光。可史文朋是谁?跟大部分诗人一样,已经去世一两百年了呢,还有活着,还在写诗?他翻到书名页……是的,他还写过别的书。对,明天早上第一件事就是去免费图书馆借点史文朋的东西读。他又读起书来,读得忘了自己,没有注意到有个年青女人已经进了屋子。他首先注意到的是亚瑟的声音在说话:
   “露丝,这是伊登先生。”
   他又插上食指合上书,还没转过身就为第一个崭新的印象所激动。并非因为那姑娘,而是因为她哥哥的话。在他那肌肉鼓突的身体下面是一堆颤颤巍巍的敏感神经。外部世界对他的意识、思想、感受和情绪的最轻微的刺激也能使它像幽幽的火焰一样闪动起来。他异常善于接纳。反映,他的想像力活跃、总在动作,辨析着事物的同与异。是“伊登先生”这个称呼激动了他——这一辈子他都被人叫做“伊登”,“马丁·伊登”或者是“马丁”。可现在却成了“先生!”太妙了!他心里想。他的心灵仿佛立即化作了一具庞大的幻灯机。他在自己意识里看到了数不清的生活场景:锅炉房、水手舱、野营和海滩、监狱和酒吧、高烧病房和贫民窟街道,在各种环境中别人跟他的关系都表现在对他那些称呼上。
   于是他转过身来,看到了那姑娘。一见到她他脑海里的种种幻影便全没有了。她是个轻盈苍白的人,有一对超凡脱俗的蓝眼睛,大大的,还有满头丰密的金发。他不知道她的穿着如何,只觉得那衣服跟人一样美好。他把她比作嫩枝上的一朵淡淡的金花。不,她是一个精灵,一个仙子,一个女神;她那升华过的美不属于人间。说不定书本是对的,在上流社会真有许多像她这样的人。史文朋那家伙大约就善于歌唱她。在桌上那本书里他描述伊素特姑娘的时候也许心里就有像她这样一个人。尽管林林总总的形象、感觉、思想猛然袭来,在现实中他的行动却并未中断。他见她向他伸出手来,握手时像个男人一样坦然地望着他的眼睛。他认识的女人却不这样握手,实际上她们大多数并不跟谁握手。一阵联想的浪潮袭来,他跟妇女们认识的各种方式涌入了他的心里,几乎要淹没了它。可他却摆脱了这些印象,只顾看着她。他从没见过这样的女人。唉!他以前认识的那些女人呀!她们立即在那姑娘两旁排列开来。在那永恒的刹那他已站在以她为中心的一道肖像画廊里。她的周围出现了许多妇女。以她为标准一衡量,那些妇女的分量和尺寸转瞬之间便一清二楚。他看见工厂女工们菜色的衰弱的脸,市场南面的妇女们痴笑的喧嚣的脸,还有游牧营他的妇女,老墨西哥抽烟的黧黑的妇女。这些形象又为穿木展、走碎步、像玩偶一样的日本妇女所代替,为面目姣好却带着堕落痕迹的欧亚混血妇女所代替,为戴花环、褐皮肤的南海诸岛的妇女形象所代替;而她们又被一群噩梦般的奇形怪状的妇女所代替,白教堂大路边慢吞吞臭烘烘的女人,窑子里酗酒的浮肿的妓女,还有一大群从地狱出来的女鬼,她们满嘴粗话,一身肮脏,乔装成妇女模样,掳掠着水手,搜索着海港的垃圾和贫民窟的残渣。
   “伊登先生,请坐!”那姑娘说话了,“自从亚瑟告诉我们之后我就一直希望见到你。你很勇敢……”
   他不以为然地挥挥手,含糊地说那算不了什么,别人也会那样做的。她注意到他那挥动的手上有还不曾愈合的新伤,再看那只松垂的手也有伤口未愈。再迅速打量了一眼,又见他面颊上有个伤疤,还有一个伤疤则从额前的发际露出,而第三个疤则穿到浆硬的领子里去了。她看到他晒成青铜色的脖子被浆硬的领子磨出的红印时差点笑了出来。他显然不习惯于硬领。同样,她那双女性的眼睛也一眼便看透了他那身衣服,那廉价的缺乏品味的剪裁,外衣肩上的褶皱和袖子上那一连串皱纹,仿佛在为他那鼓突的二头肌做广告。
   他一面含混地表示他做的事不值一提,一面也按她的希望打算坐下,也还有时间欣赏她坐下时的优美轻松。等到在她对面的椅子上坐了下来,又意识到自己形象的笨拙,感到狼狈。这一切于他都是全新的经验。他一辈子也没注意过外表的潇洒或笨拙;他心里从没有过这种自我意识。他在椅子边上小心翼翼地坐了下来,却为两只手十分担心,因为它们不论放在什么地方都仿佛碍事。此时亚瑟又离开了屋子,马丁·伊登很不情愿地望着他走了。让他一个人在屋子里跟一个仙女一样的苍白女人坐在一起,他感到不知所措。这地方没有可以吩咐送饮料来的酒吧老板,没有可以打发到街角去买啤酒的小孩,无法用社交的饮料唤起愉快的友谊交流。
   “你的脖子上有那样一个疤痕,伊登先生,”姑娘说,“那是怎么来的?我相信那是一次冒险。”
   “是个墨西哥佬用刀子扎的,小姐,”他回答,舔了舔焦渴的嘴唇,清了清嗓子,“打了一架。我把他刀子弄掉后他还想咬掉我的鼻子呢。”
   话虽说得不好,他眼前却浮现出萨莱纳克鲁兹那个炎热的星夜的丰富景象。狭长的海滩的白影,港口运糖船的灯光,远处喝醉了酒的水手们的哈喝,熙熙攘攘的码头苦力,墨西哥人那满脸的怒气,他的眼睛在星光下闪出野兽一般的凶光,钢铁在自己脖于上的刺痛和热血的流淌。人群,惊呼,他和墨西哥人躯体扭结,滚来滚去,踢起了沙尘。而在辽远的某个地点却有柔美的吉他声珍珍珠综传来。那景象便是如此,至今想起仍令他激动。他不知道画出墙上那幅领港船的画家是否能把那场面画下来。那白色的沙滩、星星、运糖船的灯火,还有在沙滩上围观打斗的黑越越的人群,若是画了出来一定棒极了,他想。刀子在画里要占个地位,他又决定,要是在星星下带点闪光准保好看。可这一切他丝毫不曾用言语透露。“他还想咬掉我的鼻子!”他结束了回答。
   “啊,”那姑娘说,声音低而辽远。他在她敏感的脸上看出了震惊的表情。
   他自己也震惊了。他那为太阳晒黑的脸上露出了狼狈不安的淡淡红晕,其实他已燥热得仿佛暴露在锅炉间的烈火面前。在小姐面前谈这类打架动刀子的事显然有失体统。在书本里,像她那圈子里的人是绝不会谈这类事的——甚至根本就不知道。
   双方努力所引起的话头告一段落。于是她试探着问起他脸上的伤疤。刚一问起他就明白她是在引导他谈他的话题,便决心撇开它,去谈她的话题。
   “那不过是一次意外,”他说,用手摸摸面颊,“有天晚上没有一丝风,却遇上了凶险的海流,主吊杠的吊索断了,接着复滑车也坏了。吊索是根钢缆,像蛇一样抽打着。值班水手都想抓住它,我一扑上去就(炎欠)地挨了一鞭。”
   “啊!”她说,这次带着理解的口气,虽然心里觉得他说的简直像外国话。她不懂得“吊索”是什么东西,“(炎欠)地”是什么意思。
   “这个史崴朋,”他说,试图执行自己的计划,却把史文朋读作了史崴朋。
   “谁呀?”
   “史崴朋,”他重复道,仍然念错了音,“诗人。”
   “史文朋,”她纠正他。
   “对,就是那家伙,”他结结巴巴地说,脸又发热了,“他死了多久了?”
   “怎么,我没听说他死了,”她莫名其妙地望着他,“你在哪儿知道他的、’
   “我没见过他,”他回答,“只是在你进来之前在桌上的书里读到了他的诗。你喜欢他的诗么?”
   于是她便就他提起的话题轻松地谈了开来。他感到好过了一点,从椅子边沿往后靠了靠,同时两手紧抓住扶手,仿佛怕它挣脱,把地摔到地上。他要引导她谈她的话题的努力已经成功。她侃侃而谈,他尽力跟上。他为她那美丽的脑袋竟装了那么多知识感到惊讶,同时也饱餐看她那苍白的面庞的秀色。他倒是跟上了她的话,虽然从她唇边漫不经心地滚出的陌生词汇和评论术语和他从不知道的思路都叫他感到吃力。可这也正好刺激了他的思维,使他兴奋。这就叫智力的生活,他想,其中有美,他连做梦也不曾想到过的、温暖人心的、了不起的美。他听得忘了情,只用饥渴的眼睛望着她。这儿有为之而生活、奋斗、争取的东西——是的,为之牺牲生命的东西。书本是对的。世界上确有这样的女人。她只是其中之一。她给他的想像插上了翅膀,巨大而光辉的画幅在他眼前展开,画幅上出现了爱情、浪漫故事和为妇女而创造的英雄业迹的模糊的、巨大的形象——为一个苍白的妇女,一朵黄金的娇花。他穿过那摇晃的搏动的幻景有如穿过仙灵的海市蜃楼望着坐在那儿大谈其文学艺术的现实中的女人。他听着,不知不觉已是目不转睛地采望着她。此时他天性中的阳刚之气在他的目光中情烟闪耀。她对于男性世界虽然所知极少,但作为女人也敏锐地觉察到了他那燃烧的目光。她从没见过男人这样注视自己,不禁感到巩促,说话给巴了,迟疑了,连思路也中断了。他叫她害怕,而同时,他这样的呆望也叫她出奇地愉快。她的教养警告她出现了危险,有了不应有的、微妙的、神秘的。可她的本能却发出了嘹亮的呐喊,震动了她全身,迫使她超越阶级、地位和得失扑向这个从另一个世界来的旅人,扑向这个手上有伤、喉头叫不习惯的衬衫磨出了红印的粗鲁的年轻人。非常清楚,这人已受到并不高雅的生活的污染,而她却是纯洁的,她的纯洁对他感到抵触。可她却是个女人,一个刚开始觉察到女人的矛盾的女人。
   “我刚才说过——我在说什么?”她突然住了嘴,为自己的狼狈处境快活地笑了。
   ‘你在说史文朋之所以没有成为伟大的诗人是因为——你正说到这儿,小姐,”他提醒她。这时他内心似乎感到一种饥渴。她那笑声在他脊梁上唤起了上下闪动的阵阵酸麻。多么清脆,他默默地想道,像一串叮叮当当的银铃。转瞬之间他已到了另一个辽远的国度,并停留了片刻,他在那儿的樱花树下抽着烟,谛听着有层层飞檐的宝塔上的铃声,铃声召唤穿着芒(革奚)的善男信女去膜拜神道。
   “不错,谢谢你,”她说,“归根到底史文朋的失败是由于他不够敏感。他有许多诗都不值一读。真正伟大的诗人的每一行诗都应充满美丽的真理,向人世一切心胸高尚的人发出召唤。伟大诗人的诗一行也不能删掉,每删去一行都是对全人类的一份损失。”
   “可我读到的那几段,”他迟疑地说,“我倒觉得棒极了。可没想到他是那么一个——蹩脚货。我估计那是在他别的书里。”
   “你读的那本书里也有许多诗行可以删去的,”她说,口气一本正经而且武断。
   “我一定是没读到,”他宣布,“我读到的可全是好样的,光辉,闪亮,一直照进我心里,照透了它,像太阳,像探照灯。我对他的感觉就是这样。不过我看我对诗知道得不多,小姐。”
   他讪讪地住了嘴,但方寸已乱,因为自己笨嘴拙舌很感到难为情。他在他读到的诗行里感到了伟大和光辉,却辞不达意,表达不出自己的感受。他在心里把自已比作在漆黑的夜里登上一艘陌生船只的水手,在不熟悉的运转着的索具中摸索。好,他作出了判断:要熟悉这个新环境得靠自己的努力。他还从没遇见过他想要找到它的窍门而找不到的东西。现在已是他学会谈谈自己熟悉的东西让她了解的时候了。她在他的地平线上越来越高大了。
   “现在,朗费罗……”她说。
   “啊,我读过,”他冲动地插嘴说,急于表现自己,炫耀自己那一点书本知识,让她知道他并不完全是个白痴。“《生命礼赞》,《精益求精》,还有……我估计就这些。”
   她点头微笑了,他不知怎么觉得那微笑透着宽容,一种出于怜悯的宽容。他像那样假充内行简直是个傻瓜。朗费罗那家伙很可能写了无数本诗集呢。
   “请原谅我像那样插嘴,小姐。我看事实是,我对这类东西知道得不多。我不内行。不过我要努力变成内行。”
   这话像是威胁。他的口气坚定,目光凌厉,面部的线条僵直。在她眼里他那下腭已棱角毕露,开合时咄咄逼人。同时一股强烈的生命之力似乎从他身上磅礴喷出,向她滚滚扑来。
   “我认为你是可以成为——内行的,”她以一笑结束了自己的话,“你很坚强。”
   她的目光在那肌肉发达的脖子上停留了片刻,那脖子被太阳晒成了青铜色,筋位突出,洋溢着粗糙的健康与强力,几乎像公牛。他虽只红着脸腼腆地坐在那儿,她却再一次感到了他的吸引力。一个放肆的念头在她心里闪过,叫她吃了一惊。她觉得若是她能用双手接住他的脖子,那力量便会向她流注。这念头令她大为惊讶,似乎向她泄露了她某种连做梦也不曾想到的低劣天性。何况在她心里育力原是粗鲁野蛮的东西,而她理想的男性美一向是修长而潇洒。刚才那念头仍然索绕着她。她竟然渴望用双手去楼那胞成青铜色的脖子,这叫她惶惑。事实是她自己一点也不健壮,她的身体和心灵都需要强力,可她并不知道。她只知道以前从没有男人对她产生过像眼前这人一样的影响,而这人却多次用他那可怕的语法令她震惊。
   “是的,我身子骨不坏,”他说,“日子难过的时候我是连碎铁也能消化的。不过我刚才知消化不良,你说的话我大部分没听懂。从没受过那种训练,你看。我喜欢书,喜欢诗,有功夫就读,可从没像你那样掂量过它们。我像个来到陌生的海上却没有海图或罗盘的海员。现在我想找到自己的方向,也许你能给我校准。你谈的这些东西是从哪儿学来的?”
   “我看是读书,学习,”她回答。
   “我小时候也上过学的,”他开始反驳。
   “是的,可我指的是中学,听课,还有大学。”
   “你上过大学?”他坦然地表示惊讶,问道。他感到她离他更辽远了,至少有一百万英里。
   “我也要上学。我要专门学英文。”
   他并不知道“英文”是什么意思,可他心里记下了自己知识上的缺陷,说了下去。
   “我要学多少年才能上大学?”他问。
   对他求知的渴望她以微笑表示鼓励,同时说:“那得看你已经学过了多少。你从没上过中学吧?当然没上过。但是你小学毕业没有?”
   “还差两年毕业就停学了,”他回答,“可我在学校却总是因为成绩优良受到奖励。”
   他马上为这吹嘘生起自己的气来,死命地攥紧了扶手,攥得指尖生疼。这时他意识到又一个女人走进了屋子。他看见那姑娘离开椅子向来人轻盈地跑去,两人互相亲吻,然后彼此搂着腰向他走来。那一定是她母亲,他想。那是个高个儿的金发妇女,苗条、庄重、美丽。她的长袍是他估计会在这儿见到的那种,线条优美,他看了感到舒服。她和她的衣着让他想起舞台上的女演员。于是他回忆起曾见过类似的仕女名媛穿着类似的衣服进入伦敦的戏院,而他却站在那儿张望,被推到雨篷以外的蒙蒙细雨中去。他的心随即又飞到了横滨的大酒店,在那儿的阶沿上他也见过许多阔人家妇女。于是横滨市和横滨港以其千姿百态在他眼前闪过。可他立即国目前的急需驱走了万花筒一样的回忆。他知道自己得起立接受介绍,便笨拙地站起身子。此时他的裤子膝部鼓了起来,两臂也可笑地松垂,板起了面孔准备迎接即将到来的考验。


  The one opened the door with a latch-key and went in, followed by a young fellow who awkwardly removed his cap. He wore rough clothes that smacked of the sea, and he was manifestly out of place in the spacious hall in which he found himself. He did not know what to do with his cap, and was stuffing it into his coat pocket when the other took it from him. The act was done quietly and naturally, and the awkward young fellow appreciated it. "He understands," was his thought. "He'll see me through all right."
   He walked at the other's heels with a swing to his shoulders, and his legs spread unwittingly, as if the level floors were tilting up and sinking down to the heave and lunge of the sea. The wide rooms seemed too narrow for his rolling gait, and to himself he was in terror lest his broad shoulders should collide with the doorways or sweep the bric-a-brac from the low mantel. He recoiled from side to side between the various objects and multiplied the hazards that in reality lodged only in his mind. Between a grand piano and a centre-table piled high with books was space for a half a dozen to walk abreast, yet he essayed it with trepidation. His heavy arms hung loosely at his sides. He did not know what to do with those arms and hands, and when, to his excited vision, one arm seemed liable to brush against the books on the table, he lurched away like a frightened horse, barely missing the piano stool. He watched the easy walk of the other in front of him, and for the first time realized that his walk was different from that of other men. He experienced a momentary pang of shame that he should walk so uncouthly. The sweat burst through the skin of his forehead in tiny beads, and he paused and mopped his bronzed face with his handkerchief.
   "Hold on, Arthur, my boy," he said, attempting to mask his anxiety with facetious utterance. "This is too much all at once for yours truly. Give me a chance to get my nerve. You know I didn't want to come, an' I guess your fam'ly ain't hankerin' to see me neither."
   "That's all right," was the reassuring answer. "You mustn't be frightened at us. We're just homely people - Hello, there's a letter for me."
   He stepped back to the table, tore open the envelope, and began to read, giving the stranger an opportunity to recover himself. And the stranger understood and appreciated. His was the gift of sympathy, understanding; and beneath his alarmed exterior that sympathetic process went on. He mopped his forehead dry and glanced about him with a controlled face, though in the eyes there was an expression such as wild animals betray when they fear the trap. He was surrounded by the unknown, apprehensive of what might happen, ignorant of what he should do, aware that he walked and bore himself awkwardly, fearful that every attribute and power of him was similarly afflicted. He was keenly sensitive, hopelessly self-conscious, and the amused glance that the other stole privily at him over the top of the letter burned into him like a dagger- thrust. He saw the glance, but he gave no sign, for among the things he had learned was discipline. Also, that dagger-thrust went to his pride. He cursed himself for having come, and at the same time resolved that, happen what would, having come, he would carry it through. The lines of his face hardened, and into his eyes came a fighting light. He looked about more unconcernedly, sharply observant, every detail of the pretty interior registering itself on his brain. His eyes were wide apart; nothing in their field of vision escaped; and as they drank in the beauty before them the fighting light died out and a warm glow took its place. He was responsive to beauty, and here was cause to respond.
   An oil painting caught and held him. A heavy surf thundered and burst over an outjutting rock; lowering storm-clouds covered the sky; and, outside the line of surf, a pilot-schooner, close-hauled, heeled over till every detail of her deck was visible, was surging along against a stormy sunset sky. There was beauty, and it drew him irresistibly. He forgot his awkward walk and came closer to the painting, very close. The beauty faded out of the canvas. His face expressed his bepuzzlement. He stared at what seemed a careless daub of paint, then stepped away. Immediately all the beauty flashed back into the canvas. "A trick picture," was his thought, as he dismissed it, though in the midst of the multitudinous impressions he was receiving he found time to feel a prod of indignation that so much beauty should be sacrificed to make a trick. He did not know painting. He had been brought up on chromos and lithographs that were always definite and sharp, near or far. He had seen oil paintings, it was true, in the show windows of shops, but the glass of the windows had prevented his eager eyes from approaching too near.
   He glanced around at his friend reading the letter and saw the books on the table. Into his eyes leaped a wistfulness and a yearning as promptly as the yearning leaps into the eyes of a starving man at sight of food. An impulsive stride, with one lurch to right and left of the shoulders, brought him to the table, where he began affectionately handling the books. He glanced at the titles and the authors' names, read fragments of text, caressing the volumes with his eyes and hands, and, once, recognized a book he had read. For the rest, they were strange books and strange authors. He chanced upon a volume of Swinburne and began reading steadily, forgetful of where he was, his face glowing. Twice he closed the book on his forefinger to look at the name of the author. Swinburne! he would remember that name. That fellow had eyes, and he had certainly seen color and flashing light. But who was Swinburne? Was he dead a hundred years or so, like most of the poets? Or was he alive still, and writing? He turned to the title-page . . . yes, he had written other books; well, he would go to the free library the first thing in the morning and try to get hold of some of Swinburne's stuff. He went back to the text and lost himself. He did not notice that a young woman had entered the room. The first he knew was when he heard Arthur's voice saying:-
   "Ruth, this is Mr. Eden."
   The book was closed on his forefinger, and before he turned he was thrilling to the first new impression, which was not of the girl, but of her brother's words. Under that muscled body of his he was a mass of quivering sensibilities. At the slightest impact of the outside world upon his consciousness, his thoughts, sympathies, and emotions leapt and played like lambent flame. He was extraordinarily receptive and responsive, while his imagination, pitched high, was ever at work establishing relations of likeness and difference. "Mr. Eden," was what he had thrilled to - he who had been called "Eden," or "Martin Eden," or just "Martin," all his life. And "MISTER!" It was certainly going some, was his internal comment. His mind seemed to turn, on the instant, into a vast camera obscura, and he saw arrayed around his consciousness endless pictures from his life, of stoke-holes and forecastles, camps and beaches, jails and boozing-kens, fever-hospitals and slum streets, wherein the thread of association was the fashion in which he had been addressed in those various situations.
   And then he turned and saw the girl. The phantasmagoria of his brain vanished at sight of her. She was a pale, ethereal creature, with wide, spiritual blue eyes and a wealth of golden hair. He did not know how she was dressed, except that the dress was as wonderful as she. He likened her to a pale gold flower upon a slender stem. No, she was a spirit, a divinity, a goddess; such sublimated beauty was not of the earth. Or perhaps the books were right, and there were many such as she in the upper walks of life. She might well be sung by that chap, Swinburne. Perhaps he had had somebody like her in mind when he painted that girl, Iseult, in the book there on the table. All this plethora of sight, and feeling, and thought occurred on the instant. There was no pause of the realities wherein he moved. He saw her hand coming out to his, and she looked him straight in the eyes as she shook hands, frankly, like a man. The women he had known did not shake hands that way. For that matter, most of them did not shake hands at all. A flood of associations, visions of various ways he had made the acquaintance of women, rushed into his mind and threatened to swamp it. But he shook them aside and looked at her. Never had he seen such a woman. The women he had known! Immediately, beside her, on either hand, ranged the women he had known. For an eternal second he stood in the midst of a portrait gallery, wherein she occupied the central place, while about her were limned many women, all to be weighed and measured by a fleeting glance, herself the unit of weight and measure. He saw the weak and sickly faces of the girls of the factories, and the simpering, boisterous girls from the south of Market. There were women of the cattle camps, and swarthy cigarette-smoking women of Old Mexico. These, in turn, were crowded out by Japanese women, doll-like, stepping mincingly on wooden clogs; by Eurasians, delicate featured, stamped with degeneracy; by full-bodied South-Sea-Island women, flower-crowned and brown-skinned. All these were blotted out by a grotesque and terrible nightmare brood - frowsy, shuffling creatures from the pavements of Whitechapel, gin-bloated hags of the stews, and all the vast hell's following of harpies, vile-mouthed and filthy, that under the guise of monstrous female form prey upon sailors, the scrapings of the ports, the scum and slime of the human pit.
   "Won't you sit down, Mr. Eden?" the girl was saying. "I have been looking forward to meeting you ever since Arthur told us. It was brave of you - "
   He waved his hand deprecatingly and muttered that it was nothing at all, what he had done, and that any fellow would have done it. She noticed that the hand he waved was covered with fresh abrasions, in the process of healing, and a glance at the other loose-hanging hand showed it to be in the same condition. Also, with quick, critical eye, she noted a scar on his cheek, another that peeped out from under the hair of the forehead, and a third that ran down and disappeared under the starched collar. She repressed a smile at sight of the red line that marked the chafe of the collar against the bronzed neck. He was evidently unused to stiff collars. Likewise her feminine eye took in the clothes he wore, the cheap and unaesthetic cut, the wrinkling of the coat across the shoulders, and the series of wrinkles in the sleeves that advertised bulging biceps muscles.
   While he waved his hand and muttered that he had done nothing at all, he was obeying her behest by trying to get into a chair. He found time to admire the ease with which she sat down, then lurched toward a chair facing her, overwhelmed with consciousness of the awkward figure he was cutting. This was a new experience for him. All his life, up to then, he had been unaware of being either graceful or awkward. Such thoughts of self had never entered his mind. He sat down gingerly on the edge of the chair, greatly worried by his hands. They were in the way wherever he put them. Arthur was leaving the room, and Martin Eden followed his exit with longing eyes. He felt lost, alone there in the room with that pale spirit of a woman. There was no bar-keeper upon whom to call for drinks, no small boy to send around the corner for a can of beer and by means of that social fluid start the amenities of friendship flowing.
   "You have such a scar on your neck, Mr. Eden," the girl was saying. "How did it happen? I am sure it must have been some adventure."
   "A Mexican with a knife, miss," he answered, moistening his parched lips and clearing hip throat. "It was just a fight. After I got the knife away, he tried to bite off my nose."
   Baldly as he had stated it, in his eyes was a rich vision of that hot, starry night at Salina Cruz, the white strip of beach, the lights of the sugar steamers in the harbor, the voices of the drunken sailors in the distance, the jostling stevedores, the flaming passion in the Mexican's face, the glint of the beast-eyes in the starlight, the sting of the steel in his neck, and the rush of blood, the crowd and the cries, the two bodies, his and the Mexican's, locked together, rolling over and over and tearing up the sand, and from away off somewhere the mellow tinkling of a guitar. Such was the picture, and he thrilled to the memory of it, wondering if the man could paint it who had painted the pilot- schooner on the wall. The white beach, the stars, and the lights of the sugar steamers would look great, he thought, and midway on the sand the dark group of figures that surrounded the fighters. The knife occupied a place in the picture, he decided, and would show well, with a sort of gleam, in the light of the stars. But of all this no hint had crept into his speech. "He tried to bite off my nose," he concluded.
   "Oh," the girl said, in a faint, far voice, and he noticed the shock in her sensitive face.
   He felt a shock himself, and a blush of embarrassment shone faintly on his sunburned cheeks, though to him it burned as hotly as when his cheeks had been exposed to the open furnace-door in the fire- room. Such sordid things as stabbing affrays were evidently not fit subjects for conversation with a lady. People in the books, in her walk of life, did not talk about such things - perhaps they did not know about them, either.
   There was a brief pause in the conversation they were trying to get started. Then she asked tentatively about the scar on his cheek. Even as she asked, he realized that she was making an effort to talk his talk, and he resolved to get away from it and talk hers.
   "It was just an accident," he said, putting his hand to his cheek. "One night, in a calm, with a heavy sea running, the main-boom-lift carried away, an' next the tackle. The lift was wire, an' it was threshin' around like a snake. The whole watch was tryin' to grab it, an' I rushed in an' got swatted."
   "Oh," she said, this time with an accent of comprehension, though secretly his speech had been so much Greek to her and she was wondering what a LIFT was and what SWATTED meant.
   "This man Swineburne," he began, attempting to put his plan into execution and pronouncing the I long.
   "Who?"
   "Swineburne," he repeated, with the same mispronunciation. "The poet."
   "Swinburne," she corrected.
   "Yes, that's the chap," he stammered, his cheeks hot again. "How long since he died?"
   "Why, I haven't heard that he was dead." She looked at him curiously. "Where did you make his acquaintance?"
   "I never clapped eyes on him," was the reply. "But I read some of his poetry out of that book there on the table just before you come in. How do you like his poetry?"
   And thereat she began to talk quickly and easily upon the subject he had suggested. He felt better, and settled back slightly from the edge of the chair, holding tightly to its arms with his hands, as if it might get away from him and buck him to the floor. He had succeeded in making her talk her talk, and while she rattled on, he strove to follow her, marvelling at all the knowledge that was stowed away in that pretty head of hers, and drinking in the pale beauty of her face. Follow her he did, though bothered by unfamiliar words that fell glibly from her lips and by critical phrases and thought-processes that were foreign to his mind, but that nevertheless stimulated his mind and set it tingling. Here was intellectual life, he thought, and here was beauty, warm and wonderful as he had never dreamed it could be. He forgot himself and stared at her with hungry eyes. Here was something to live for, to win to, to fight for - ay, and die for. The books were true. There were such women in the world. She was one of them. She lent wings to his imagination, and great, luminous canvases spread themselves before him whereon loomed vague, gigantic figures of love and romance, and of heroic deeds for woman's sake - for a pale woman, a flower of gold. And through the swaying, palpitant vision, as through a fairy mirage, he stared at the real woman, sitting there and talking of literature and art. He listened as well, but he stared, unconscious of the fixity of his gaze or of the fact that all that was essentially masculine in his nature was shining in his eyes. But she, who knew little of the world of men, being a woman, was keenly aware of his burning eyes. She had never had men look at her in such fashion, and it embarrassed her. She stumbled and halted in her utterance. The thread of argument slipped from her. He frightened her, and at the same time it was strangely pleasant to be so looked upon. Her training warned her of peril and of wrong, subtle, mysterious, luring; while her instincts rang clarion-voiced through her being, impelling her to hurdle caste and place and gain to this traveller from another world, to this uncouth young fellow with lacerated hands and a line of raw red caused by the unaccustomed linen at his throat, who, all too evidently, was soiled and tainted by ungracious existence. She was clean, and her cleanness revolted; but she was woman, and she was just beginning to learn the paradox of woman.
   "As I was saying - what was I saying?" She broke off abruptly and laughed merrily at her predicament.
   "You was saying that this man Swinburne failed bein' a great poet because - an' that was as far as you got, miss," he prompted, while to himself he seemed suddenly hungry, and delicious little thrills crawled up and down his spine at the sound of her laughter. Like silver, he thought to himself, like tinkling silver bells; and on the instant, and for an instant, he was transported to a far land, where under pink cherry blossoms, he smoked a cigarette and listened to the bells of the peaked pagoda calling straw-sandalled devotees to worship.
   "Yes, thank you," she said. "Swinburne fails, when all is said, because he is, well, indelicate. There are many of his poems that should never be read. Every line of the really great poets is filled with beautiful truth, and calls to all that is high and noble in the human. Not a line of the great poets can be spared without impoverishing the world by that much."
   "I thought it was great," he said hesitatingly, "the little I read. I had no idea he was such a - a scoundrel. I guess that crops out in his other books."
   "There are many lines that could be spared from the book you were reading," she said, her voice primly firm and dogmatic.
   "I must 'a' missed 'em," he announced. "What I read was the real goods. It was all lighted up an' shining, an' it shun right into me an' lighted me up inside, like the sun or a searchlight. That's the way it landed on me, but I guess I ain't up much on poetry, miss."
   He broke off lamely. He was confused, painfully conscious of his inarticulateness. He had felt the bigness and glow of life in what he had read, but his speech was inadequate. He could not express what he felt, and to himself he likened himself to a sailor, in a strange ship, on a dark night, groping about in the unfamiliar running rigging. Well, he decided, it was up to him to get acquainted in this new world. He had never seen anything that he couldn't get the hang of when he wanted to and it was about time for him to want to learn to talk the things that were inside of him so that she could understand. SHE was bulking large on his horizon.
   "Now Longfellow - " she was saying.
   "Yes, I've read 'm," he broke in impulsively, spurred on to exhibit and make the most of his little store of book knowledge, desirous of showing her that he was not wholly a stupid clod. "'The Psalm of Life,' 'Excelsior,' an' . . . I guess that's all."
   She nodded her head and smiled, and he felt, somehow, that her smile was tolerant, pitifully tolerant. He was a fool to attempt to make a pretence that way. That Longfellow chap most likely had written countless books of poetry.
   "Excuse me, miss, for buttin' in that way. I guess the real facts is that I don't know nothin' much about such things. It ain't in my class. But I'm goin' to make it in my class."
   It sounded like a threat. His voice was determined, his eyes were flashing, the lines of his face had grown harsh. And to her it seemed that the angle of his jaw had changed; its pitch had become unpleasantly aggressive. At the same time a wave of intense virility seemed to surge out from him and impinge upon her.
   "I think you could make it in - in your class," she finished with a laugh. "You are very strong."
   Her gaze rested for a moment on the muscular neck, heavy corded, almost bull-like, bronzed by the sun, spilling over with rugged health and strength. And though he sat there, blushing and humble, again she felt drawn to him. She was surprised by a wanton thought that rushed into her mind. It seemed to her that if she could lay her two hands upon that neck that all its strength and vigor would flow out to her. She was shocked by this thought. It seemed to reveal to her an undreamed depravity in her nature. Besides, strength to her was a gross and brutish thing. Her ideal of masculine beauty had always been slender gracefulness. Yet the thought still persisted. It bewildered her that she should desire to place her hands on that sunburned neck. In truth, she was far from robust, and the need of her body and mind was for strength. But she did not know it. She knew only that no man had ever affected her before as this one had, who shocked her from moment to moment with his awful grammar.
   "Yes, I ain't no invalid," he said. "When it comes down to hard- pan, I can digest scrap-iron. But just now I've got dyspepsia. Most of what you was sayin' I can't digest. Never trained that way, you see. I like books and poetry, and what time I've had I've read 'em, but I've never thought about 'em the way you have. That's why I can't talk about 'em. I'm like a navigator adrift on a strange sea without chart or compass. Now I want to get my bearin's. Mebbe you can put me right. How did you learn all this you've ben talkin'?"
   "By going to school, I fancy, and by studying," she answered.
   "I went to school when I was a kid," he began to object.
   "Yes; but I mean high school, and lectures, and the university."
   "You've gone to the university?" he demanded in frank amazement. He felt that she had become remoter from him by at least a million miles.
   "I'm going there now. I'm taking special courses in English."
   He did not know what "English" meant, but he made a mental note of that item of ignorance and passed on.
   "How long would I have to study before I could go to the university?" he asked.
   She beamed encouragement upon his desire for knowledge, and said: "That depends upon how much studying you have already done. You have never attended high school? Of course not. But did you finish grammar school?"
   "I had two years to run, when I left," he answered. "But I was always honorably promoted at school."
   The next moment, angry with himself for the boast, he had gripped the arms of the chair so savagely that every finger-end was stinging. At the same moment he became aware that a woman was entering the room. He saw the girl leave her chair and trip swiftly across the floor to the newcomer. They kissed each other, and, with arms around each other's waists, they advanced toward him. That must be her mother, he thought. She was a tall, blond woman, slender, and stately, and beautiful. Her gown was what he might expect in such a house. His eyes delighted in the graceful lines of it. She and her dress together reminded him of women on the stage. Then he remembered seeing similar grand ladies and gowns entering the London theatres while he stood and watched and the policemen shoved him back into the drizzle beyond the awning. Next his mind leaped to the Grand Hotel at Yokohama, where, too, from the sidewalk, he had seen grand ladies. Then the city and the harbor of Yokohama, in a thousand pictures, began flashing before his eyes. But he swiftly dismissed the kaleidoscope of memory, oppressed by the urgent need of the present. He knew that he must stand up to be introduced, and he struggled painfully to his feet, where he stood with trousers bagging at the knees, his arms loose- hanging and ludicrous, his face set hard for the impending ordeal.
第二章
  进入饭厅对他是一场噩梦。他停顿、碰撞、闪避、退让,有时几乎无法前进,最后总算走到了,而且坐在了她的身边。那刀叉的阵容叫他心惊胆战。它们带着未知的危险耸起了鬃毛。他出神地凝视着它们,直望到它们的光芒形成了一个背景,在这背景上出现了一系列前甲板的场景:他和伙伴们用刀子和手指吃着咸牛肉,拿用瘪了的匙子从盘里舀着浓酽的豌豆汤。他的鼻孔里冒出了变质牛肉的臭味,耳朵里听到了同伴的吧唧吧唧的咀嚼声,伴以木料的吱嘎和船身的。他望着伙伴们吃着,认为吃得像猪移。那么,他在这儿可得小心,不能吃出声来。千万要时刻注意。
   他往桌上瞥了一眼。他对面是亚瑟和他的哥哥诺尔曼。他提醒自己他们都是她的弟兄,于是对他们油然产生了暖意。这家人彼此是多么相亲相爱呀!露丝的母亲的形象闪入了他的心里:见面时的亲吻,两人手挽手向他走来的情景。在他的世界里父母和子女之间可没有这样的感情流露。这表现了她们的社会所达到的高雅程度。那是地在对那个世界短短的一瞥中所见到的最美好的事物。他欣赏,也感动,他的心因那共鸣的柔情而融化了。他终身为爱而饥渴,他天性渴求爱;爱是他生命的有机的要求,可他从不曾获得过爱,而且逐渐习以为常,僵硬了。他从不知道自己需要爱,至今如此。他只不过看见爱的行为而深受感动,认为它美好、高雅、光彩夺目而已。
   莫尔斯先生不在场,他感到高兴。跟那姑娘、她的母亲和哥哥诺尔曼结识已经够他受的了——对亚瑟他倒知道一些。那爸爸准会叫他吃不消的,他肯定。他仿佛觉得一辈子也没有这样累过。跟这一比,最沉重的苦役也好像小孩子的游戏。突然之间要他做那么多不习惯的事,使他感到吃力。他额头上沁出了大颗大颗的汗珠,衬衫也叫汗湿透了。他得用从没用过的方法进餐,要使用陌生的餐具,要偷偷地左顾右盼,看每件新事怎么做;要接受潮水般涌来的印象,在心里品评和分类。对她的渴望在他心里升起,那感觉以一种隐约而痛苦的不安困扰着他。他感到欲望催逼他前进,要他跻身于她的生活圈子,逼得他不断胡思乱想,不断朦胧地思考着如何接近她。而巨,在他偷视对面的诺尔曼和其他人,要想知道什么时候用什么刀叉时,心中也在研究那人的特点,同时不自觉地衡量着、鉴定着——一切都是因为她。同时他还要谈话,听别人谈话,听别人之间的谈话,必要时作回答,而他的舌头又习惯于信马由疆,常常需要勒住。还有仆人也来给他添乱。仆人是一种永无休止的威胁,总悄悄出现在他肩头旁。全是些可怕的狮身人面兽,老提出些难题、哑谜,要他立即作答。在整个用餐期间一个疑问总压在他心头:洗指钵。他毫无来由地、持续不断地、数十次地想起那东西,猜想着它是什么样子、会在什么时候出现。他听人说过这类东西,而现在他随时都可能看见它。也许马上就能看见。他正跟使用它的高雅人士坐在一起用餐呢——是的,他自己也要用它了。而最重要的是,在他意识的底层,也在他思想的表面存在着一个问题:他在这些人面前应当如何自处,抱什么态度?他不断匆忙地思考着这个问题。他有过怯懦的念头:打算不懂装懂,逢场作戏。还有更怯懦的念头在警告他:这事他准失败,他的天性使他不够资格,只会让自己出洋相。
   在晚餐的前半他为确定自己的态度而斗争着,一直沉默无语,却没想到他的沉默却让亚瑟前一天的话落了空。亚瑟前一天曾宣布他要带个野蛮人回家吃饭,叫大家别大惊小怪,因为他们会发现那是个很有趣的野蛮人。马丁·伊登此刻不可能知道她的这位弟弟竟会那样说他的坏话——尤其是他曾帮助他摆脱了那场很不愉快的斗殴。此刻他就这样坐在桌边,一方面为自己的不合时宜而烦恼,一方面又迷恋着周围进行的一切。他第一次意识到吃饭原来还不仅具有实利的功能。他进着餐,却不知道吃的是什么。在这张桌子旁边进餐是一场审美活动,也是一种智力活动。在这里他尽情地满足着对美的爱。他的心灵震动了。他听见了许多他不懂得的词语,听见了许多他只在书本上见过、而他的熟人谁也没有水平读得准的词。在他听见这类词句从露丝那了不起的家庭的成员们嘴边漫不经心地流出时他禁不住欢喜得浑身颤栗。书本上的浪漫故事、美和高智力变成了现实。他进入了一种罕见的幸福境界。在这里,美梦从幻想的角落里堂而皇之地走了出来,变成了现实。
   他从不曾过过这样高雅的生活。他在角落里默默地听着,观察着,快活着,只用简短的话回答她,“是,小姐”,“不,小姐”;回答她母亲,“是,夫人”,“不,夫人”;对她的两个哥哥则抑制了海上训练出来的冲动,没有回答“是,长官”,“不,长官”。他觉得那样回答不妥,承认了自己低人一等——他既然要接近露丝,就决不能那样说。他的尊严也这样要求。“天呐!”有一回他对自己说,“我并不比他们差,他们知道讲多我所不知道的东西,可我照样可以学会!”然后,在她或是她母亲称呼他“伊登先生”的时候,他便忘掉了自己傲慢的自尊,高兴得脸上放光,心里发热。他现在是个文明人了,一点不错,跟他在书本上读到的人并肩坐在一起用餐,自己也成了书本上的人,在一卷卷的精装本里过关斩将。
   但是,在他使亚瑟的话落空,以温驯的羔羊而不是野蛮人的形象出现时,他却在绞尽脑汁思考着行动的办法。他并非温驯的羔羊,第二提琴手的地位跟他那力求出人头他的天性格格不久。他只在非说话不可时说话,说起话来又像他到餐桌来时那样磕磕绊绊,犹豫停顿。他在他那多国混合词汇中斟酌选择,有的词他知道合运却怕发错了音;有的词又怕别人听不懂,或是太粗野刺耳,只好放弃。他一直感到压力。他明白这样地字斟句酌是在让自己出洋相,难以畅所欲言。何况他那爱自由的天性也受不了这种压抑,跟他那脖子受不了浆硬了的枷锁十分相像。何况他也相信他不能老这样下去。他天生思维犀利,感觉敏锐,创作感强烈得难以驾驭。一种想法或感受从胸中涌出控制了他,经历着产前的阵痛,要找到表现和形式。接着他便忘记了自己,忘记了环境,他的老一套词语——他所熟悉的言语工具——不知不觉地溜了出来。
   有一次,他拒绝了一个仆人给他的东西,可那人仍在打岔,纠缠,他便简短地强调说:“爬啊!”
   桌边的人立即来了劲,等着听下文,那仆人也得意扬扬,而他却悔恨得无以复加。不过他立即镇定了下来。
   “‘爬啊’是夏威夷的卡那加话,是‘行了’的意思,”他解释道,“刚才我是说漏了嘴。这词拼写作p-a-u。”
   他看见她盯住他的手,露出好奇与猜测的目光,很愿意作解释,便说——
   “我刚从一艘太平洋邮轮来到海湾,那船已经误了期,因此在穿过布格特湾时,我们都像黑鬼一样干着活,堆放着货载——你大约知道,那是混合运载。我手上的皮就是那时刮掉的。”
   “啊,我不是那个意思,”这回轮到她忙不迭地作解释了,“你的手跟身子比起来似乎太小。”
   他的脸发起烧来,觉得又叫人揭出了一个短处。
   “不错,”他不高兴地说,“我的手不够大,受不起折磨。我的胳臂和肩头却又力气太大,打起人来像骡子踢一样。可我揍破别人的下巴骨时,自己的手也被碰破。”
   他不满自己说出的话,很厌弃自己。他又没管住自己的舌头,提起了不高雅的话题。
   “你那天那样帮助亚瑟真是见义勇为——你跟他并不认识呀,”她策略地说,意识到了他的不满,却不明白原因何在。
   他反倒明白了她的意图,不禁心潮乍涌,感激莫名,又管不住他那信口开河的舌头了。
   “那算不了什么,”他说,“谁也会打抱不平的。那帮无赖是在找碴儿,亚瑟可没有惹他们。他们找上他,我就找上他们,抡了几拳头。那帮家伙掉了几颗牙,我手上也破了一层皮。我并不在乎,我见到——”
   他张着嘴,打住了,在快要落入堕落的深渊时打住了。他完全不配跟她呼吸同一种空气!这时亚瑟第二十次谈起了他在渡船上跟那帮醉醺醺的流氓之间的纠纷;他谈到马丁·伊登如何冲入重围解救了他。这时马丁·伊登却皱紧了眉头在想着自己那副傻相,更坚决地思考着该对他们采取什么态度。到目前为止他肯定并没有成功。他的感觉是:他毕竟是局外人,不会说圈内话,不能冒充圈内人。若是跳假面舞准得露馅。何况跳假面舞也跟他的天性不合,他心里容不下装腔作势。他无论如何也得老实。他目前虽不会说他们那种话,以后还是可以会的。对此他已下了决心。可现在他还得说话,说自己的话。当然,调子要降低,让他们听得懂,也不能叫他们太震惊。还有,对于不熟悉的东西不能假装熟悉,别人误以为他熟悉,也不能默认。为了实行这个决定,在两位弟兄谈起大学行话,几次提到“三角”时,马丁·伊登便问:
   “‘三角’是啥?”
   “三角课”诺尔曼说,“一种高级数学。”
   “什么是‘数学’?”他又提出一个问题。诺尔曼不禁笑了。
   “数学,算术,”他回答。
   马丁·伊登点了点头。那仿佛无穷无尽的知识远景在他眼前闪现了一下。他见到的东西具体化了——他那异于常人的想像力能使抽象变得具体。这家人所象征的三角、数学和整个知识领域经过他头脑的炼金术一冶炼便变成了美妙的景物。他眼中的远景是绿色的叶丛和林中的空地,或是闪着柔和的光,或为闪亮的光穿透。远处的细节则为一片红通通的雾寓所笼罩,模糊不清。他知道在那红雾的背后是未知事物的魅力和浪漫故事的。对他,那颇像是美酒。这里有险可探,要用脑子,要用手,这是一个等着被征服的世界——一个念头立即从他的意识背后闪出:征服,博得她的欢心,博得他身边这个百合花一样苍白的仙灵的欢心。
   他心中这熠熠闪耀的幻影却被亚瑟撕破了,驱散了。亚瑟整个晚上都在诱导这个野蛮人露出本相。马丁·伊登想起了自己的决定,第一次还原到了自我。起初是自觉的、故意的,但立即沉浸于创造的欢乐之中。他把他所知道的生活呈现到了听众的眼前。走私船翠鸟号被缉私船查获时他是船上的水手。那过程他亲眼目睹,大有可讲的。他把汹涌的大海和海上的船与人呈现到了听众面前。他把他的印象传达给了他们,让他们看到了他所看到的一切。他以艺术家的才能从无数的细节中进行选择,描绘出了五光十色闪亮燃烧的生活场景,并赋予了官行动。他以粗护的雄辩、激清和强力的浪涛席卷了听众,让他们随着他前进。他常以叙述的生动和用词的泼辣使他们震惊。但他在暴力之后总紧跟上一段优美的叙述,在悲剧之后又常用幽默去缓解,用对水手内心的乖戾和怪僻的诠释去缓解。
   他讲述时那姑娘望着他,眼里闪烁着惊讶的光。他的火焰温暖着她,使她怀疑自己这一辈子都似乎太冷,因而想向这个熊熊燃烧的人靠近,向这座喷发着精力、雄浑和刚强的火山靠近。她感到必须向他靠近,却也遭到抵抗,有一种反冲动逼使她退缩开去。那双伤破的手今她反感,它们叫劳动弄得很脏,肌理里已嵌满了生活的污秽。他那脖子上的红印和鼓突的肌肉叫她反感。他的粗鲁也叫她害怕;他的每一句粗话都是对她耳朵的侮辱;他生活中的每个粗野的侧面都是对她灵魂的亵读。可他仍不断地吸引着她。她认为他之所以能对她在这种力量是因为他的。她心中最牢固树立的一切都动摇了。他的传奇和冒险故事粉碎着传统。生命在他那些唾手而得的胜利和随时爆发的哈哈大笑面前再也不是严肃的进取和克制,而成了供他随意摆弄颠倒的玩具,任随他满不在乎地度过、嬉戏,满不在乎地抛弃。‘那就玩下去吧!”这话响彻了她的心里,“既然你想,就偎过去,用双手按住他的脖子吧!”这种想法之鲁莽放肆吓得她几乎叫出声来。她估计着自己的纯洁和教养,用自己所有的一切跟他所缺少的一切作对比,却都没有用。她望望周围,别的人都听得津津有味;若不是见她的母亲眼里有骇异的表情,她几乎要绝望了。不错,母亲的骇异是如醉如痴的骇异,但毕竟是骇异。这个从外界的黑暗中来的人是的,她母亲看出来了,而母亲是对的。她在一切问题上都相信她母亲,这次也一样。他的火焰再也不温暖了,对他的畏惧再也不痛苦了。
   后来她为他弹钢琴,声势煊赫地向他隐约地强调出两人之间那不可逾越的鸿沟。她的音乐是条大棒,狠狠地击在他的头顶,打晕了他,了他,却也激励了他。他肃然竦然地望着她。鸿沟在他心里加宽了,跟在她心里一样。可是他跨越鸿沟的雄心却比鸿沟的加定增长得更快。他这推敏感的神经丛太复杂,不可能整个晚上默视着一条鸿沟无所作为,特别是在听着音乐的时候,他对音乐敏感得出奇。音乐像烈酒一样燃起他大胆的。音乐是麻醉剂,抓住他的想像力,把他送到了九霄云外。音乐驱散了肮脏的现实,以美感满溢了他的心灵,解放了他的浪漫精神,给它的脚跟装上了翅膀。他并不懂她弹的是什么。那音乐跟他所听过的砰砰敲打的舞厅钢琴曲和吵闹喧嚣的铜管乐是两回事,可是他从书本上读到过对这类音乐的提示。他主要依靠信心去欣赏她的音乐。起初他耐心地等待着节奏分明的轻快旋律出现,却又因它不久便消失而迷惘。他刚抓住节奏,配合好想像,打算随它翱翔,那轻快的节奏却在一片对他毫无意义的混乱的喧嚣中消失了。于是他的想像便化作惰性物体,摔到了地上。
   有一回他忽然感到这一切都含有蓄意拒绝的意思,他把捉住了她的对抗情绪,力图弄明白她击打着琴键所传达给他的信息,却又否定了这种想法,认为她用不着,也不可能那么做,便又更加自由地沉浸于旋律之中。原有的欢乐情绪也随之诱发。他的脚再也不是泥脚,他的肉体变得轻灵飘逸;眼前和内心出现了一片灿烂的光明。随即,他眼前的景象消失了,他自己也悄然远行,到世界各地浪游击了。那世界对他非常可爱。已知的和未知的一切融会为一个辉煌的梦,挤满了他的幻想。他进入了一个阳光普照的国度的陌生的海港,在从没人见过的野蛮民族的市场上漫步。他曾在海上温暖得透不过气来的夜里闻到过的香料岛上的馨香又进入了他的鼻孔。在迎着西南贸易风行驶在赤道上的漫长的日子里,他望着棕相摇曳的珊瑚岛逐渐在身后的碧海里沉没,再望着棕相摇曳的珊瑚岛逐渐从前面的碧海里升起。场景如思想一样倏忽来去。他一时骑着野牛在色彩绚丽、宛如仙境的彩绘沙漠上飞驰;一时又穿过闪着微光的热气俯瞰着死亡谷的晒白了的墓窟。他在快要冻结的海洋上划着桨,海面上巍然高耸的庞大冰山熠耀在阳光里。他躺在珊瑚礁的海滩上,那儿的椰树低垂到涛声轻柔的海面,一艘古船的残骸燃烧着,闪出蓝色的火苗。火光里人们跳着呼啦舞。为他们奏乐的歌手们弹奏着叮叮当当的尤克里里琴,擂着轰隆作响的大鼓,高唱着野蛮的爱情歌曲。那是纵情于声色之乐的赤道之夜。背景是衬着一天星星的火山口轮廓,头顶是一弯苍白的漂浮的月牙儿。天穹的低处燃烧着南十字座的四颗星星。
   他是一架竖琴,一生的经历和意识是他的琴弦,音乐之潮是吹拂琴弦使之带着回忆和梦想颤抖的风。他不光是感受。他的感知以形象、颜色和光彩的形式积聚,并以某种升华的神奇的方式实现他大胆的想像。过去。现在和将来交汇融合。他在辽阔而温暖的世界上踟蹰,并通过高尚的冒险和高贵的业绩向她奔去,他要跟她在一起,赢得她、搂着她、带着她飞翔,穿过他心灵的王国。
   这一切的迹象她在转过头去时都在他脸上看到了。那是一张起了变化的面孔。他用闪亮的大眼睛穿透了音乐的帷幕看到了生命的跳跃、律动,和精神的巨大幻影。她吃了一惊。那结结巴巴的粗鲁汉子不见了,尽管那不称身的衣服、伤痕累累的手和晒黑了的面孔依然如故。但这只不过宛如监牢的栅门,她通过栅门看到的是一个怀着希望的伟大灵魂。只因他那在弱的嘴唇不善表达,他只能词不达意地说话,或是哑口无言。这一点她只在瞬间看到,转瞬间那粗鲁汉子又回来了。她因自己离奇的幻觉感到好笑。可那瞬息的印象却萦绕在她心里不去。夜深了,他结结巴巴地告了别,打算离开。她把那卷史文朋和一本勃朗于借给了他——她在英文课里就修勃朗宁。他涨红了脸结结巴巴地表示感谢时很像个孩子。一阵母性的怜爱之情从她心里油然涌起。她忘记了那莽汉、那被囚禁的灵魂;忘记了那带着满身阳刚之气盯着她、看得她快乐也害怕的人。她在自己面前只看见一个大孩子在跟自己握手,那手满是老茧,像把豆蔻挫子,挫得她的皮肤生疼。这时那大孩子正在结巴地说:
   “这是找平生最美好的一夜。你看,这里的东西我不习惯……”他无可奈何地望望四周,“这样的人,这样的房子,我全都觉得陌生,可我都喜欢。”
   “希望你再来看我们,”她趁他跟她的哥哥告别时说。
   他拉紧帽子,突然一歪身子死命地跑出门去,不见了。
   “喂,你们觉得他怎么样?”亚瑟问。
   “非常有趣,是一阵清新的臭氧,”她回答,“他有多大?”
   “二十岁——差点二十一。我今天下午问过地。没想到他会那么年青。”
   我比他还大三岁呢,她和哥哥们吻别时心还想。


  The process of getting into the dining room was a nightmare to him. Between halts and stumbles, jerks and lurches, locomotion had at times seemed impossible. But at last he had made it, and was seated alongside of Her. The array of knives and forks frightened him. They bristled with unknown perils, and he gazed at them, fascinated, till their dazzle became a background across which moved a succession of forecastle pictures, wherein he and his mates sat eating salt beef with sheath-knives and fingers, or scooping thick pea-soup out of pannikins by means of battered iron spoons. The stench of bad beef was in his nostrils, while in his ears, to the accompaniment of creaking timbers and groaning bulkheads, echoed the loud mouth-noises of the eaters. He watched them eating, and decided that they ate like pigs. Well, he would be careful here. He would make no noise. He would keep his mind upon it all the time.
   He glanced around the table. Opposite him was Arthur, and Arthur's brother, Norman. They were her brothers, he reminded himself, and his heart warmed toward them. How they loved each other, the members of this family! There flashed into his mind the picture of her mother, of the kiss of greeting, and of the pair of them walking toward him with arms entwined. Not in his world were such displays of affection between parents and children made. It was a revelation of the heights of existence that were attained in the world above. It was the finest thing yet that he had seen in this small glimpse of that world. He was moved deeply by appreciation of it, and his heart was melting with sympathetic tenderness. He had starved for love all his life. His nature craved love. It was an organic demand of his being. Yet he had gone without, and hardened himself in the process. He had not known that he needed love. Nor did he know it now. He merely saw it in operation, and thrilled to it, and thought it fine, and high, and splendid.
   He was glad that Mr. Morse was not there. It was difficult enough getting acquainted with her, and her mother, and her brother, Norman. Arthur he already knew somewhat. The father would have been too much for him, he felt sure. It seemed to him that he had never worked so hard in his life. The severest toil was child's play compared with this. Tiny nodules of moisture stood out on his forehead, and his shirt was wet with sweat from the exertion of doing so many unaccustomed things at once. He had to eat as he had never eaten before, to handle strange tools, to glance surreptitiously about and learn how to accomplish each new thing, to receive the flood of impressions that was pouring in upon him and being mentally annotated and classified; to be conscious of a yearning for her that perturbed him in the form of a dull, aching restlessness; to feel the prod of desire to win to the walk in life whereon she trod, and to have his mind ever and again straying off in speculation and vague plans of how to reach to her. Also, when his secret glance went across to Norman opposite him, or to any one else, to ascertain just what knife or fork was to be used in any particular occasion, that person's features were seized upon by his mind, which automatically strove to appraise them and to divine what they were - all in relation to her. Then he had to talk, to hear what was said to him and what was said back and forth, and to answer, when it was necessary, with a tongue prone to looseness of speech that required a constant curb. And to add confusion to confusion, there was the servant, an unceasing menace, that appeared noiselessly at his shoulder, a dire Sphinx that propounded puzzles and conundrums demanding instantaneous solution. He was oppressed throughout the meal by the thought of finger-bowls. Irrelevantly, insistently, scores of times, he wondered when they would come on and what they looked like. He had heard of such things, and now, sooner or later, somewhere in the next few minutes, he would see them, sit at table with exalted beings who used them - ay, and he would use them himself. And most important of all, far down and yet always at the surface of his thought, was the problem of how he should comport himself toward these persons. What should his attitude be? He wrestled continually and anxiously with the problem. There were cowardly suggestions that he should make believe, assume a part; and there were still more cowardly suggestions that warned him he would fail in such course, that his nature was not fitted to live up to it, and that he would make a fool of himself.
   It was during the first part of the dinner, struggling to decide upon his attitude, that he was very quiet. He did not know that his quietness was giving the lie to Arthur's words of the day before, when that brother of hers had announced that he was going to bring a wild man home to dinner and for them not to be alarmed, because they would find him an interesting wild man. Martin Eden could not have found it in him, just then, to believe that her brother could be guilty of such treachery - especially when he had been the means of getting this particular brother out of an unpleasant row. So he sat at table, perturbed by his own unfitness and at the same time charmed by all that went on about him. For the first time he realized that eating was something more than a utilitarian function. He was unaware of what he ate. It was merely food. He was feasting his love of beauty at this table where eating was an aesthetic function. It was an intellectual function, too. His mind was stirred. He heard words spoken that were meaningless to him, and other words that he had seen only in books and that no man or woman he had known was of large enough mental caliber to pronounce. When he heard such words dropping carelessly from the lips of the members of this marvellous family, her family, he thrilled with delight. The romance, and beauty, and high vigor of the books were coming true. He was in that rare and blissful state wherein a man sees his dreams stalk out from the crannies of fantasy and become fact.
   Never had he been at such an altitude of living, and he kept himself in the background, listening, observing, and pleasuring, replying in reticent monosyllables, saying, "Yes, miss," and "No, miss," to her, and "Yes, ma'am," and "No, ma'am," to her mother. He curbed the impulse, arising out of his sea-training, to say "Yes, sir," and "No, sir," to her brothers. He felt that it would be inappropriate and a confession of inferiority on his part - which would never do if he was to win to her. Also, it was a dictate of his pride. "By God!" he cried to himself, once; "I'm just as good as them, and if they do know lots that I don't, I could learn 'm a few myself, all the same!" And the next moment, when she or her mother addressed him as "Mr. Eden," his aggressive pride was forgotten, and he was glowing and warm with delight. He was a civilized man, that was what he was, shoulder to shoulder, at dinner, with people he had read about in books. He was in the books himself, adventuring through the printed pages of bound volumes.
   But while he belied Arthur's description, and appeared a gentle lamb rather than a wild man, he was racking his brains for a course of action. He was no gentle lamb, and the part of second fiddle would never do for the high-pitched dominance of his nature. He talked only when he had to, and then his speech was like his walk to the table, filled with jerks and halts as he groped in his polyglot vocabulary for words, debating over words he knew were fit but which he feared he could not pronounce, rejecting other words he knew would not be understood or would be raw and harsh. But all the time he was oppressed by the consciousness that this carefulness of diction was making a booby of him, preventing him from expressing what he had in him. Also, his love of freedom chafed against the restriction in much the same way his neck chafed against the starched fetter of a collar. Besides, he was confident that he could not keep it up. He was by nature powerful of thought and sensibility, and the creative spirit was restive and urgent. He was swiftly mastered by the concept or sensation in him that struggled in birth-throes to receive expression and form, and then he forgot himself and where he was, and the old words - the tools of speech he knew - slipped out.
   Once, he declined something from the servant who interrupted and pestered at his shoulder, and he said, shortly and emphatically, "Pew!"
   On the instant those at the table were keyed up and expectant, the servant was smugly pleased, and he was wallowing in mortification. But he recovered himself quickly.
   "It's the Kanaka for 'finish,'" he explained, "and it just come out naturally. It's spelt p-a-u."
   He caught her curious and speculative eyes fixed on his hands, and, being in explanatory mood, he said:-
   "I just come down the Coast on one of the Pacific mail steamers. She was behind time, an' around the Puget Sound ports we worked like niggers, storing cargo-mixed freight, if you know what that means. That's how the skin got knocked off."
   "Oh, it wasn't that," she hastened to explain, in turn. "Your hands seemed too small for your body."
   His cheeks were hot. He took it as an exposure of another of his deficiencies.
   "Yes," he said depreciatingly. "They ain't big enough to stand the strain. I can hit like a mule with my arms and shoulders. They are too strong, an' when I smash a man on the jaw the hands get smashed, too."
   He was not happy at what he had said. He was filled with disgust at himself. He had loosed the guard upon his tongue and talked about things that were not nice.
   "It was brave of you to help Arthur the way you did - and you a stranger," she said tactfully, aware of his discomfiture though not of the reason for it.
   He, in turn, realized what she had done, and in the consequent warm surge of gratefulness that overwhelmed him forgot his loose-worded tongue.
   "It wasn't nothin' at all," he said. "Any guy 'ud do it for another. That bunch of hoodlums was lookin' for trouble, an' Arthur wasn't botherin' 'em none. They butted in on 'm, an' then I butted in on them an' poked a few. That's where some of the skin off my hands went, along with some of the teeth of the gang. I wouldn't 'a' missed it for anything. When I seen - "
   He paused, open-mouthed, on the verge of the pit of his own depravity and utter worthlessness to breathe the same air she did. And while Arthur took up the tale, for the twentieth time, of his adventure with the drunken hoodlums on the ferry-boat and of how Martin Eden had rushed in and rescued him, that individual, with frowning brows, meditated upon the fool he had made of himself, and wrestled more determinedly with the problem of how he should conduct himself toward these people. He certainly had not succeeded so far. He wasn't of their tribe, and he couldn't talk their lingo, was the way he put it to himself. He couldn't fake being their kind. The masquerade would fail, and besides, masquerade was foreign to his nature. There was no room in him for sham or artifice. Whatever happened, he must be real. He couldn't talk their talk just yet, though in time he would. Upon that he was resolved. But in the meantime, talk he must, and it must be his own talk, toned down, of course, so as to be comprehensible to them and so as not to shook them too much. And furthermore, he wouldn't claim, not even by tacit acceptance, to be familiar with anything that was unfamiliar. In pursuance of this decision, when the two brothers, talking university shop, had used "trig" several times, Martin Eden demanded:-
   "What is TRIG?"
   "Trignometry," Norman said; "a higher form of math."
   "And what is math?" was the next question, which, somehow, brought the laugh on Norman.
   "Mathematics, arithmetic," was the answer.
   Martin Eden nodded. He had caught a glimpse of the apparently illimitable vistas of knowledge. What he saw took on tangibility. His abnormal power of vision made abstractions take on concrete form. In the alchemy of his brain, trigonometry and mathematics and the whole field of knowledge which they betokened were transmuted into so much landscape. The vistas he saw were vistas of green foliage and forest glades, all softly luminous or shot through with flashing lights. In the distance, detail was veiled and blurred by a purple haze, but behind this purple haze, he knew, was the glamour of the unknown, the lure of romance. It was like wine to him. Here was adventure, something to do with head and hand, a world to conquer - and straightway from the back of his consciousness rushed the thought, CONQUERING, TO WIN TO HER, THAT LILY-PALE SPIRIT SITTING BESIDE HIM.
   The glimmering vision was rent asunder and dissipated by Arthur, who, all evening, had been trying to draw his wild man out. Martin Eden remembered his decision. For the first time he became himself, consciously and deliberately at first, but soon lost in the joy of creating in making life as he knew it appear before his listeners' eyes. He had been a member of the crew of the smuggling schooner Halcyon when she was captured by a revenue cutter. He saw with wide eyes, and he could tell what he saw. He brought the pulsing sea before them, and the men and the ships upon the sea. He communicated his power of vision, till they saw with his eyes what he had seen. He selected from the vast mass of detail with an artist's touch, drawing pictures of life that glowed and burned with light and color, injecting movement so that his listeners surged along with him on the flood of rough eloquence, enthusiasm, and power. At times he shocked them with the vividness of the narrative and his terms of speech, but beauty always followed fast upon the heels of violence, and tragedy was relieved by humor, by interpretations of the strange twists and quirks of sailors' minds.
   And while he talked, the girl looked at him with startled eyes. His fire warmed her. She wondered if she had been cold all her days. She wanted to lean toward this burning, blazing man that was like a volcano spouting forth strength, robustness, and health. She felt that she must lean toward him, and resisted by an effort. Then, too, there was the counter impulse to shrink away from him. She was repelled by those lacerated hands, grimed by toil so that the very dirt of life was ingrained in the flesh itself, by that red chafe of the collar and those bulging muscles. His roughness frightened her; each roughness of speech was an insult to her ear, each rough phase of his life an insult to her soul. And ever and again would come the draw of him, till she thought he must be evil to have such power over her. All that was most firmly established in her mind was rocking. His romance and adventure were battering at the conventions. Before his facile perils and ready laugh, life was no longer an affair of serious effort and restraint, but a toy, to be played with and turned topsy-turvy, carelessly to be lived and pleasured in, and carelessly to be flung aside. "Therefore, play!" was the cry that rang through her. "Lean toward him, if so you will, and place your two hands upon his neck!" She wanted to cry out at the recklessness of the thought, and in vain she appraised her own cleanness and culture and balanced all that she was against what he was not. She glanced about her and saw the others gazing at him with rapt attention; and she would have despaired had not she seen horror in her mother's eyes - fascinated horror, it was true, but none the less horror. This man from outer darkness was evil. Her mother saw it, and her mother was right. She would trust her mother's judgment in this as she had always trusted it in all things. The fire of him was no longer warm, and the fear of him was no longer poignant.
   Later, at the piano, she played for him, and at him, aggressively, with the vague intent of emphasizing the impassableness of the gulf that separated them. Her music was a club that she swung brutally upon his head; and though it stunned him and crushed him down, it incited him. He gazed upon her in awe. In his mind, as in her own, the gulf widened; but faster than it widened, towered his ambition to win across it. But he was too complicated a plexus of sensibilities to sit staring at a gulf a whole evening, especially when there was music. He was remarkably susceptible to music. It was like strong drink, firing him to audacities of feeling, - a drug that laid hold of his imagination and went cloud-soaring through the sky. It banished sordid fact, flooded his mind with beauty, loosed romance and to its heels added wings. He did not understand the music she played. It was different from the dance- hall piano-banging and blatant brass bands he had heard. But he had caught hints of such music from the books, and he accepted her playing largely on faith, patiently waiting, at first, for the lifting measures of pronounced and simple rhythm, puzzled because those measures were not long continued. Just as he caught the swing of them and started, his imagination attuned in flight, always they vanished away in a chaotic scramble of sounds that was meaningless to him, and that dropped his imagination, an inert weight, back to earth.
   Once, it entered his mind that there was a deliberate rebuff in all this. He caught her spirit of antagonism and strove to divine the message that her hands pronounced upon the keys. Then he dismissed the thought as unworthy and impossible, and yielded himself more freely to the music. The old delightful condition began to be induced. His feet were no longer clay, and his flesh became spirit; before his eyes and behind his eyes shone a great glory; and then the scene before him vanished and he was away, rocking over the world that was to him a very dear world. The known and the unknown were commingled in the dream-pageant that thronged his vision. He entered strange ports of sun-washed lands, and trod market-places among barbaric peoples that no man had ever seen. The scent of the spice islands was in his nostrils as he had known it on warm, breathless nights at sea, or he beat up against the southeast trades through long tropic days, sinking palm-tufted coral islets in the turquoise sea behind and lifting palm-tufted coral islets in the turquoise sea ahead. Swift as thought the pictures came and went. One instant he was astride a broncho and flying through the fairy-colored Painted Desert country; the next instant he was gazing down through shimmering heat into the whited sepulchre of Death Valley, or pulling an oar on a freezing ocean where great ice islands towered and glistened in the sun. He lay on a coral beach where the cocoanuts grew down to the mellow- sounding surf. The hulk of an ancient wreck burned with blue fires, in the light of which danced the HULA dancers to the barbaric love-calls of the singers, who chanted to tinkling UKULELES and rumbling tom-toms. It was a sensuous, tropic night. In the background a volcano crater was silhouetted against the stars. Overhead drifted a pale crescent moon, and the Southern Cross burned low in the sky.
   He was a harp; all life that he had known and that was his consciousness was the strings; and the flood of music was a wind that poured against those strings and set them vibrating with memories and dreams. He did not merely feel. Sensation invested itself in form and color and radiance, and what his imagination dared, it objectified in some sublimated and magic way. Past, present, and future mingled; and he went on oscillating across the broad, warm world, through high adventure and noble deeds to Her - ay, and with her, winning her, his arm about her, and carrying her on in flight through the empery of his mind.
   And she, glancing at him across her shoulder, saw something of all this in his face. It was a transfigured face, with great shining eyes that gazed beyond the veil of sound and saw behind it the leap and pulse of life and the gigantic phantoms of the spirit. She was startled. The raw, stumbling lout was gone. The ill-fitting clothes, battered hands, and sunburned face remained; but these seemed the prison-bars through which she saw a great soul looking forth, inarticulate and dumb because of those feeble lips that would not give it speech. Only for a flashing moment did she see this, then she saw the lout returned, and she laughed at the whim of her fancy. But the impression of that fleeting glimpse lingered, and when the time came for him to beat a stumbling retreat and go, she lent him the volume of Swinburne, and another of Browning - she was studying Browning in one of her English courses. He seemed such a boy, as he stood blushing and stammering his thanks, that a wave of pity, maternal in its prompting, welled up in her. She did not remember the lout, nor the imprisoned soul, nor the man who had stared at her in all masculineness and delighted and frightened her. She saw before her only a boy, who was shaking her hand with a hand so calloused that it felt like a nutmeg-grater and rasped her skin, and who was saying jerkily:-
   "The greatest time of my life. You see, I ain't used to things. . . " He looked about him helplessly. "To people and houses like this. It's all new to me, and I like it."
   "I hope you'll call again," she said, as he was saying good night to her brothers.
   He pulled on his cap, lurched desperately through the doorway, and was gone.
   "Well, what do you think of him?" Arthur demanded.
   "He is most interesting, a whiff of ozone," she answered. "How old is he?"
   "Twenty - almost twenty-one. I asked him this afternoon. I didn't think he was that young."
   And I am three years older, was the thought in her mind as she kissed her brothers goodnight.
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