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短篇小说》 Rabbit 》 Rabbit Kanai Mieko

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　　Writing such a thing, but also include non-written, since the write, it can not escape. Perhaps writing is my destiny.
　　I write in his diary that day these words, in order to walk around in the new home, I do go out half-duty Side preparations. The doctor advised me that due to the physical health benefits of walking, so although I did not like walking, but still no alternative but to walk.
　　Rain quickly enveloped the sky is gray to the ground all the features. In this weather, although almost can not consider the health of the sort of thing, but even the furniture in this room full of people are not disappointed in the room, the impression that diaries and writing paper with its face, it would be better to activities outside activities body good.
　　Although I did not know what this is, however, that there is a sickening sense of smell. This is not the smell disgusting, not only because they want to vomit smell this smell. This is from my body out of the internal distribution of taste.
　　I was walking on the way, in that nothing is populated thicket surrounded the courtyard of the old house, groggy, tired and sat resting on a stone, he saw a white rabbit ran front. Although there are rabbits, but not common, but that is almost the size of me, but this is a rabbit. The evidence is that there are two very long ears. In short, no matter from where it seems, she is completely rabbits. I catch up from the stone rabbit, but in the chase, I did not like the air wildly, suddenly fell into the hole. When I looked intently at the time, just staring at that big rabbit like I seem to sit next to me.
　　"Who are you?"
　　"I walk past, lost, go here. You the Rabbit? No, a rabbit Miss it?"
　　"I particularly like a rabbit you?" This rabbit side of the throat snore snore to ringing, while happy to say, "I was, but I did recently find a man and rabbits can be."
　　"Really do like the rabbit," I exclaimed.
　　Called Sayuri, she said, although this was not terribly bad name, but if Ji called ghost lily or lily of the class, she will be satisfied. "But now no one knows my name, who may not remember. So I think you'd better remember my name is Ji Lily."
　　Her home in extreme terms, can be said that rabbit hole. The floor filled with rabbit skin, was X-pinned on the wall to the rabbit skin was peeled off, exudes the smell of fish smell beast. I sat on the floor piled rabbit skin, the smell is not used to the taste makes me sick. And the little girl looked to me as if this pair does not respond like, keep earth ears, and she scratched with the hind legs behind the ears. Of course this is not behind the ears, itching, and must be long-term habit, like rabbit, like always shook.
　　"I myself always think, I become like this pair, there is always the reason for it! But I still did not understand the morning began to appear about this situation."
　　Then she slowly began to recall.
　　I woke up the morning wandering around the house, but no one at home. Kitchen, dining room, living room, family bedroom, storage, bathroom, toilet, I have searched. To be prudent, I also open the wardrobe and looked, but no one has. Kitchen, gas cooking stove with boiling milk, white milk plays a bubble, like eggs, like the Naipi from muster up out of. Wash room, the brother installed in the cup with the soap to shave with hot water was still dark. Dining room, out of the refrigerator to the ice lattice juice was poured on the surface of small water droplets in the mist shrouded cemented cup. Newspapers read like after being up and thrown on the table the same. Despite being such a scenario, no one can do at home.
　　I baked bread and butter off the gas oven, drink orange juice on the table, while reading the newspaper (not so much read the newspaper, nurturing that only glance at the newspaper is not read by a large coverage of the major type Event News. that news may be foreign wars, the assassination of a foreign prime minister, foreign revolution, in short, is nothing more to do with me), while others may no longer want to come back home. Even if they do not come back, I do not have any embarrassing. I even never thought of why they are not.
　　Father picked up from the plate of bread tucked egg yolk, said as he ate. After the contents are as long as the study will be useful, can not no matter how much people do not want to learn, learning no shortcuts and the like. He mumbled a trial of strength did not mean those words, and with a large cup of tea drinking. He himself did not notice the tip curled beard and black tea yolk drops, or while eating, breathing the second plate of bacon and toast, and talking loudly, as usual, then (my father always speak loudly Even when muttering to himself. sounds like someone in a loud racket.) So loudly that my father always said:
　　"If dined belly full stomach can make it, who are lazy sleepy, is more than a healthy person case. There is no doubt that this is one of the normal physiological instincts. That being the case, why people have to work? Eat After breakfast, head a couple of hours I stumbled to bed, three meals each time wants to sleep after. "
　　Nobody answered nothing, we all listened to a little defiance his father said. Family that the father is a greedy pig Snooze the red-faced, but I do not like this. I like sleep in this sweet joy being fed to breath wheezes, pregnant the father of a drum of a drum. Dinner, I often with my father, other family will never want to eat eat vegetables, eat a very full, are blinded, and still kept on eating. The name of every two people cynical child. Too can not eat until full time, not so with the use of fingers as the Roman noble savage way to pull the voice, but do drink a special herbal diarrhea medicine, such as diarrhea and then started to eat after the stomach.
　　Father in raising food rabbits, twice a month, every first day and the fifth to kill a rabbit food. And the fifth one to the first day, before breakfast at the beginning, my father woke up early, pick out from the cage to kill a fat rabbit. Honestly do not understand anything but a rabbit by his father with thick fingers clutching furry ears, Su Zhao legs motionless. Only to be wrapped in fluffy white hair, soft animals, timid to tighten the body, is easily his father's large hand grabbed his neck. I beheld the second floor of the bedroom several times over, days are numbered to stretch the legs, neck joint was broken body was placed in a cage in front of the ground.
　　Then, his father put yard debris in a small room, with a knife _insert_ed into the rabbit's neck cut off the blood vessels. The rabbit hung upside down. Father slowly eat breakfast, and eat more than usual, has been eating dried rabbit blood. After breakfast, he began to cut open the rabbit's belly, took out his internal organs, stained with the blood of its thrown into a brown wooden barrel, and deft hands peeling. Father's blood stained fingers started peeling thick, white fur from the inside and then slowly exposed by the blood and fat wrapped in pink meat. Such as skin peeling, body to go into the wall of the hut nailed. Wash away the blood of the fur to be launched, was X-nail wall of the hut.
　　His father came home from work at night to put debris in a small house rabbit meat began to cook, to rabbit liver and kidney, raw sausage sauce bore into the rabbit, add the onions, mushrooms, tomatoes and various condiments cooked together. Sometimes stew to eat, but my father and I are particularly fond of condiments such Sauvignon other things within the plug bore rabbit cooked dishes. Home, others to some extent the rabbit as a cute little animals, but do make fur and rabbit meat to express contempt for such small animals and then on to kill, and eat their food was made intolerable . Hate to kill them and grabbed the neck of this lack of preparedness of small biological behavior. They always say, kill the rabbit skinning this behavior is despicable, shameful, not to mention eat its flesh, really makes people feel sick and dirty. Mothers have no alternative but to default (maybe she thinks this is because men outside the family play around and mess up fairly than good), but she is firmly against the kitchen to make this dish, said: "I said in the kitchen and stained with rabbit home to endure the smell of it? people not to clean animal smell of blood to the house. "
　　Two people repeating such a conversation. At the end of the cocoa drink mixed with rum, the two were full because of it is another. Father sucking cigars. While I was slowly sipping a stick in the tongue and the sweet taste of cocoa, while very satisfied to go to sleep. I put yard debris in the house across the way back to the second floor of the bedroom, exposed to the air a little cooler outside, very comfortable, is all the more sweet sleep. Rabbit in a cage quietly fell asleep. Pigeonhole in the low chirping of birds came. Pervaded the air fragrant flowers.
　　"Rest!" Father stood in front of my bedroom, with drowsiness said.
　　"Well, then slowly go die!" He was always such a joke.
　　I think of it, today is the fifteenth to kill rabbits - accurately, I saw the date of the newspaper - I think my father about the house being on the small debris as usual to kill rabbits. Do not know the rest of the family and the brother and sister are how. They hate to see the past, there was blood all the scenes to kill the rabbit, deliberately went to put debris in the cabin, which is unthinkable. I can not think what they can to other places. Therefore, they must have disappeared, no longer appeared, and I think that is good. I repeatedly thought long long time ago, we certainly have expected the occurrence of this matter.
　　Drink orange juice, I think no one has to make breakfast, I have to make breakfast for his father and himself, he made a ham and eggs, milk, tea and toast. And, to this particular morning, I want to do tons of rice such as red beans with rice. I think about red beans with rice the main features of such a meal should be the color, requiring red. Carrots and strawberries in the fridge, I put the carrots and strawberries placed on the table. I think my father will soon realize that the meaning of carrots and strawberries, was very happy.
　　Used to kill rabbits with his father full of bloody great aprons from the kitchen door, while happy to smile while saying: "breakfast bar, eat well today from the morning to start the school if the holiday enough." "The I like the family suddenly unaccounted for female students is due to go to school and not worry too much. " I am increasingly excited and says: "Well, they really gone?" The father entered the room from the start, the kitchen began to drift with the animals, the smell of hot blood. I deeply inhale the smell while the side like that from now on always the smell of home.
　　So, I do not know since when, to kill rabbits, the role of cooking with rabbit meat for me to serve as a. I'll be qualified for this role, do it with great interest. I'm not used to start, but immediately understand the killing rabbits is an interesting thing. And when I reached into the warm bore out the rabbit gut, there will be a kind of happiness, like hand out flowers in the rose-like meat to produce a peculiar feeling of self-forgetting. When a small fingertip touched to the heart is still sinking, flutter flutter Deng Deng to agitate for a time, my heart is also keen to agitate for the.
　　Of course, holding the rabbit's neck pinch when it also has the internal organs of rabbits with the clutch with a different happiness. To the joy of neck Qiazhe more intense, I have tried various methods. Caught the ear of a rabbit to become particularly warm care, but with their own hands to kill the soft, white, pudgy bodies, biological, was particularly cruel to people. And I knew that this would be gradually transformed into brutal full of sweet intoxication of happiness. The slightest hand-rearing, the rabbit was allowed to kick the pain, that is what I want to see, it makes me very excited. Then, I know the neck of a rabbit Qiazhe fingers completely broken. At the same time, my stomach felt rabbit whole body in pain.
　　Of course, this completely free sewing leather jacket is good, spent a considerable effort. Had not yet been tanning hides and skins, and firmly stick red, brown, purple jelly slippery thing, very hard. However, I think, tanned fur, there would be a real rabbit's mood. I first used the rabbit's blood bath body, naked body topped with blood, the people got into rabbit skin coat the inside, hopping like a rabbit, like spinning round. At that time, such and such to be a rabbit when I was mad, my father often had swollen from Rudan purple blue in the exposed face and hands, motionless. When he got up a good mood, but also to play with me. And every day I take care of his father, also do not want to let him see a doctor.
　　In short, my father and I are firmly opposed to anyone else again come to my house. Because they do not know the date of the next episode of his illness, I try not to leave his father's side. At that time, the family rabbit everywhere, all the house is fed rabbit rabbit dung and grass, a mess. So, I for their own happiness, there is no need to put yard debris in the cabin went. Even if the father attack, I can only feed him some water or something, and then wait for the end of episode. Also, my father and I are aware that the real end to the attacks, he also died.
　　Father finally came time to stop the attack. Very painful attack when his father, and I had looked to the pain-stricken. I had a lot of effort to avoid leather jacket ready, want to see it put to the father. I tried to get him happy happy, I think my father will be happy. I took that read, "Please make me eat stew," a placard, like the Easter bunny as much tied around his neck pink ribbon. It was the father's birthday, I want to own as a birthday gift for my father, so very happy. Rabbit entered the room I put on my coat (I seriously practiced jumping rabbits look and action), my father exclaimed in surprise. According to my ideas, he will be surprised into laughter after that we use my rabbit, rabbit for us to strangle the ceremony. Of course, I should not resist, honestly. But his father number one on my neck, imitating the action pinch, I tamper with it, and finally the whole body twitching violently, while on the stiffly down, pretending to die exhausted. Then, the ceremony will be peeling. When I come off the fur coat, like the skinned rabbit, like, the whole body Lin Zhao blood.
　　I imagine my father's hand stroked my internal organs of the scene, the heart thump thump to jump. However, the father did not understand my feelings, he shouted: "Monsters!" "Monster, Look out!" I was surprised to Dai Li, shouting "Daddy." Father increasingly panic, his voice hoarse, constantly shouting monster, monster, the bed around the cups, water bottles and other hand can get the things die, are throwing over. A large enamel kettle hit my face, the fake fur pink tweezers face also broke the glass. The impact on the entire face and broken glass from the bar to the left eye when the head until the rear face of intense pain, so I lost consciousness. Eyes like a fly into a burning fire dragon, one red. Red-hot flames burning up in the head, then they fall into darkness. I do not know exactly how long lost consciousness, and so I looked after waking, I fell to the father on the bedroom floor was covered with rabbit skin with fake face and hooded face and head covered with blood, the face burning pain. Although I am slowly up, but violently swinging, nausea. I finally went to the dressing table against the wall to see the wound, just a pink glass eyes on the deep ramp from the headlong into the eye. Left eye appears to be dying. I'm from the hood off his face and sham face, suddenly pull out the tie in the eyes of the glass fragments. The blood flow out hard, so I think the eye and also with the blood flow in the out. I was like, like rabbit blood drained.
　　Yes, I am totally a rabbit, but recently I feel right eye vision is also of late, near the right eye vision will completely disappear. Vision of a weakened, can not see the visible things. I naturally have a thing to be able to see the invisible force. After the death of his father's face that always emerge in my eyes and saw his iron blue puffy face, open eyes, dilating his nostrils, and hear his cries. Especially when I killed a rabbit, his face suddenly appeared in front of my hand suddenly not a little awkward, but also pinch dead rabbit. It was a terrible face, but also a terrible experience.
　　The second time I saw her, after a long time already. When I think of this strange experience turned out to be a dream, when (because then no matter how hard to find, but could not find it at a house surrounded by weed, who do not know a lot of rabbit house), one day I went for a walk suddenly remembered that way. Classified as animals instinctively point, I pour a kind of invisible odor and signals along this road, and saw that at the deserted house. I entered the house to talk to her to see her lying in the middle of a pile of white rabbit fur. Then came closer, her right eye in sharp wearing pink glass, below the white fur on the head with a large share of blood, blood on the surface to form a layer of film. This layer of water film is like rain drops on the road to the formation of the membrane, like gasoline, shines with rainbow colors. And this is my first time I saw her real face. I can not tell her face is beautiful. Her left eye is twitching can say is, the collapse down a black hole. On the right wearing a pink glass eyes bled heavily, while hanging out with the ribs on the flow out of the eye, like a pink pearl necklace, like, hanging in the pale, straight, slightly below the ear and transparent. Lips and I subconsciously expected the opposite (I think it's lips like a rabbit), showing the beautiful arched curve, with a little color. I take off the cover her whole body white rabbit skin, take off my clothes, got into the whole body fur inside. Then, I _set_ out on her side on the hood and the false face, the smell of the wild beasts in the Biezhu breathing, squatting motionless for a long time. In her around me, gather a group of blind rabbits. Rabbit, she and I remained motionless.

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